Turning back...
Ok, this is real life.
Reality bites!And it can be really disappointing but that is life...
No other way but forward...
That is what I have to keep in mind!!!
My mind currently is like a computer that needs DEFRAGMENTING.
Lots of spaces in between which need sorting, compressing, fixing and much CLEANING UP!
Writing is my defragment tool and hopefully I could resolve the issues within...
I can be pretty much a perfectionist. When I decided on doing something, expect it being done.
I do my best in every single thing, whether it be just dicing some vegetable, sweeping, typing, etc.
When I set my sights on goal, I exume all possible efforts to attain it.
I am currently at that stage where I am serious about attaining something.
The sad thing is, I can't immerse myself in making that ambition a reality.
I am being set upon a different path! A path which is rather set on stone, if not permananent, quite difficult to turn away from.
And I must take it or risk the disapproval of the whole bloodline!
Anyone, given the chance would be jumping with joy, while I take on the opposition.
Maybe I am just acting like a spoiled brat. They say I should be glad and that I should actually be happy, not many are given that window of opportunity.
I understand, I have thought through everything, and yes, it can do me good. But how about that dream?
If you've set your eyes on something for so long and are so close to getting it, then suddenly it vanishes or is taken away from you, won't you feel bad?
I guess, the best solution is to GET OVER IT. Move on and forget. So many buts... but then again, but I can't bring myself to forget about it...
For some unknown reason, watching the 8UPPERS Tour is making me remember that now vague, hazy goal I had so wanted to live.
Sigh...
Then again, like everything else, THIS TOO SHALL PASS...
hopefully sooner than expected. 'Till then I will try to hold on to anything I can grab on to.
This too shall pass, and afterwards a new found strength will be found.
I believe. I must believe. The heavens will not throw a boulder at you if they think you cannot handle it.
I believe! Everything will be okay...
Thank you. (if anyone happens to stumble and read this) and Good day!
Reality bites!And it can be really disappointing but that is life...
No other way but forward...
That is what I have to keep in mind!!!
My mind currently is like a computer that needs DEFRAGMENTING.
Lots of spaces in between which need sorting, compressing, fixing and much CLEANING UP!
Writing is my defragment tool and hopefully I could resolve the issues within...
I can be pretty much a perfectionist. When I decided on doing something, expect it being done.
I do my best in every single thing, whether it be just dicing some vegetable, sweeping, typing, etc.
When I set my sights on goal, I exume all possible efforts to attain it.
I am currently at that stage where I am serious about attaining something.
The sad thing is, I can't immerse myself in making that ambition a reality.
I am being set upon a different path! A path which is rather set on stone, if not permananent, quite difficult to turn away from.
And I must take it or risk the disapproval of the whole bloodline!
Anyone, given the chance would be jumping with joy, while I take on the opposition.
Maybe I am just acting like a spoiled brat. They say I should be glad and that I should actually be happy, not many are given that window of opportunity.
I understand, I have thought through everything, and yes, it can do me good. But how about that dream?
If you've set your eyes on something for so long and are so close to getting it, then suddenly it vanishes or is taken away from you, won't you feel bad?
I guess, the best solution is to GET OVER IT. Move on and forget. So many buts... but then again, but I can't bring myself to forget about it...
For some unknown reason, watching the 8UPPERS Tour is making me remember that now vague, hazy goal I had so wanted to live.
Sigh...
Then again, like everything else, THIS TOO SHALL PASS...
hopefully sooner than expected. 'Till then I will try to hold on to anything I can grab on to.
This too shall pass, and afterwards a new found strength will be found.
I believe. I must believe. The heavens will not throw a boulder at you if they think you cannot handle it.
I believe! Everything will be okay...
Thank you. (if anyone happens to stumble and read this) and Good day!