emailz from.. mom..
You are so silly... It drives me crazy... please just enjoy your life
whether you think it's good or not.. there is always worse... we won't be
around forever ... Please be happy .... this life is the only one you have
... make the most of it.. even if you don't like what you've been dealt
with.. I am so greatful that you are my daughter .. you just don't seem to
appreciate me and all that I do .. I can't ever seem to make you happy.. but
I want to .. .you are so special to me .. but you don't talk to me or
anything... you are the only thing I have left of Bill... and he meant soo
much to me .... you'll never know... it hurt a lot when he left... I was
so in love with him... But I am glad that Mike is around... He loves me back
... and treats us so welll... whether you think so or not... he is good to
us.. and he loves us ... you , bug and me .... and I know if you think deep
down inside you will agree... Don't be so hard on me.... I'm trying my best..
just like you are.... I'm not moody though.. only when the house is a
stinking mess... and I have worked so hard to get it... I love you Tristan
Lillian-Briana hamilton-hallam... ... Mommy
Tristan .. I'm sorry .. I don't mean to yell at you so much .. I guess you
remind me so much of me .. and maybe that's why we don't get a long.. I do
love you a lot .. I'm sorry that you are always so depressed. You are a
wonderful person.. you have so many dreams and hopes .. I hope with all my
heart that you grow up and do what makes you happy the most... I want you to
love Mike .. He's not Bill .. But he wants to be your friend.. I'll let you
guys do more together .. I want you to do more together.. as for Bill.. I
don't know if he thinks about you .. I'm sure he does .. He knows that
there is a part of him out there somewhere.. He just feels bad that you have
gotten so old already and he hasn't contacted you .. the longer , the harder
it becomes. but I know that he loves you soo much .. Did I ever tell you
that when I was pregnant with you , he would play his bass guitar to my belly
and you would kick up a storm.. he had the biggest smile ... the funny thing
is that Mike smiles just like Bill .. I don't want to let you down.. I"m
sorry for the bad things I have said .. they were out of anger .. I don't
want to be angry anymore .. I want us to be friends... I want you to want to
be my daughter ... I love you ... Tristan Lillian-briana Hamilton Hallam....
I lOVE YOU !!!!!!