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tonight was final dress rehearsal for my play.
i was incredibly nervous before hand, and felt a little off when i first got on stage, but after that the night went pretty splendidly.
that's not to say it went off without a hitch, because there were a few problems, but the way that they were dealt with among myself and the people in the scenes im in gave me a lot more confidence than a flawless show ever could have.
i feel really great about this and i am very excited about opening night tomorrow. performing in front of people.
theater makes me feel a way i forgot i could.
this show that i've been working on for the last month(and to some extent, the show before that) has taught me/ retaught me a lot of things.
most importantly that i can actually make things i want to happen happen, something i've kind of lost sight of since a while ago.
today was an especially good day, possibly one of the best days i have had in a long time.
i had one of the bigger waves of inspiration ive had in a while this afternoon, musically and regarding the play. some of which can be attributed to several cups of coffee, some of which can be attributed to other, more subtle things.
i would have liked to have stopped by simon's tonight for a brief chat, but this is probably one of the worst nights, on his part, for that, of the summer.
i dont really know how long it's been since i've felt this good, but its been a while.
the idea of a simple solution has been plaguing my life for the last several years (at least) and that's something i have been aware of for a long time. i don't know if it's been lack of effort or lack of clarity or both that have kept me from taking the first step away from that, and im not saying that my life totally changed after i woke up today, but today showed me what my other days could be like, even with a minimal amount of effort.
also, im pretty up and down on a day to day basis, so who knows?
maybe tomorrow will be the worst day of my life.
i was incredibly nervous before hand, and felt a little off when i first got on stage, but after that the night went pretty splendidly.
that's not to say it went off without a hitch, because there were a few problems, but the way that they were dealt with among myself and the people in the scenes im in gave me a lot more confidence than a flawless show ever could have.
i feel really great about this and i am very excited about opening night tomorrow. performing in front of people.
theater makes me feel a way i forgot i could.
this show that i've been working on for the last month(and to some extent, the show before that) has taught me/ retaught me a lot of things.
most importantly that i can actually make things i want to happen happen, something i've kind of lost sight of since a while ago.
today was an especially good day, possibly one of the best days i have had in a long time.
i had one of the bigger waves of inspiration ive had in a while this afternoon, musically and regarding the play. some of which can be attributed to several cups of coffee, some of which can be attributed to other, more subtle things.
i would have liked to have stopped by simon's tonight for a brief chat, but this is probably one of the worst nights, on his part, for that, of the summer.
i dont really know how long it's been since i've felt this good, but its been a while.
the idea of a simple solution has been plaguing my life for the last several years (at least) and that's something i have been aware of for a long time. i don't know if it's been lack of effort or lack of clarity or both that have kept me from taking the first step away from that, and im not saying that my life totally changed after i woke up today, but today showed me what my other days could be like, even with a minimal amount of effort.
also, im pretty up and down on a day to day basis, so who knows?
maybe tomorrow will be the worst day of my life.