Twizzlers and Piercings and Tattoos OH My!
So, here I am again, nearly on the eve of another birthday. This will be my 21st, and will be officially an adult, now that I can drink in both Canada and the US. I'm going to have a hard time with this birthday too, but I think it will be the last one until I'm 30 or so. I don't know what it is about 20 and 21...that I'm officially an adult? It feels like I'm one of those people that was unconscious for like four years and then woke up and feel how they felt four years ago...suddenly I'm at this age where when you start seeing someone you're not automatically boyfriend and girlfriend anymore, there's this whole "unofficial" stage I was never aware of. And I have to be all grown up, and act grown up, and decide on my future...worse then in high school though because now I'm in University. And all these people think I'm older then I am, and I wonder, do I act that way? Or is it just that I look that way? And if it's the looking thing then that's depressing.
And sometimes I miss being a teenager. Doing stupid things just to get a reaction out of someone...I mean I'm essentially the same person I've always been...just grown up. But how grown up am I? I've had 3 relationships...and the second longest that wasn't with the same person was only a month long. What wisdom, what experience do I have? I'm probably one of those psycho bitches I just don't realize it because I've barely dated anybody.
Time goes by way too fast...didn't it feel forever when we were kids? I remember my summers feeling like forever when I was little, now, it's halfway through July and it's almost done. It's depressing. Am I going to blink and 10 years from now find myself married with kids acting like a grown up? I like laughing hysterically with my friends over the stupidest shit...like vagisil, and sex, and yelling I want a cockmeat sandwhich at a McDonalds drive-thru and peeling away. Suddenly I won't be able to do all that because I'll be a "mom" and I'm supposed to act "grown up" and "responsible". Why do I have to give all that up? I did the same shit 7 years ago, why can't I do it 7 years from now?
And sometimes I miss being a teenager. Doing stupid things just to get a reaction out of someone...I mean I'm essentially the same person I've always been...just grown up. But how grown up am I? I've had 3 relationships...and the second longest that wasn't with the same person was only a month long. What wisdom, what experience do I have? I'm probably one of those psycho bitches I just don't realize it because I've barely dated anybody.
Time goes by way too fast...didn't it feel forever when we were kids? I remember my summers feeling like forever when I was little, now, it's halfway through July and it's almost done. It's depressing. Am I going to blink and 10 years from now find myself married with kids acting like a grown up? I like laughing hysterically with my friends over the stupidest shit...like vagisil, and sex, and yelling I want a cockmeat sandwhich at a McDonalds drive-thru and peeling away. Suddenly I won't be able to do all that because I'll be a "mom" and I'm supposed to act "grown up" and "responsible". Why do I have to give all that up? I did the same shit 7 years ago, why can't I do it 7 years from now?