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Leaving for Thailand on Wednesday morning. I guess it really didn't hit me until I woke up at 4 this afternoon after spending the night basically "sport hopping" with some crazy taiwanese guys, we golfed, rode ferris wheels, batted, went bowling and played air hockey at different random places. I'm going to miss Taiwan like nothing I've ever missed before. It's so hard to explain the difference other than "see it for yourself", because taiwan as i see it, is a completely different world. It's the moon that I've landed on, and the last thing I want to do at this point is up and leave.
I can't pinpoint the ways this trip has thus far changed me. All I can do is notice slight changes in myself and my perspectives on things, I guess. I find myself listening more to what people are saying, being more interested, not just feigning interest waiting to get in my two cents. Everything that my friends here talk about is so foreign to me, I can't help but being amazed by literally everything they say. I can't help but think that my lack of caring about relationships in america lately might have something to do with me being burnt out on the same old thing. But I find myself missing that same old stuff. That same old shit that never seemed important at the time. My culture, my home, my friends. Seeing other people loving their own culture, one that I am not a part of, makes me realize the beauty of belonging to something like that, which I have really honestly loathed and hated in the past.
This post was really just to let everyone know where I'm at and that I'm okay, not dead or anything, and that I love and miss almost all of you, even those who the terms we're on because of my past actions are questionable, the same goes.
Please post phone numbers if you want me to give you calls from thailand, since I will hopefully have tons of free time, unlike Taiwan where I basically from waking up (9 am) to going to bed (3 am) I have been dragged around by different friends everyday. So take care everyone! I love you all!
I can't pinpoint the ways this trip has thus far changed me. All I can do is notice slight changes in myself and my perspectives on things, I guess. I find myself listening more to what people are saying, being more interested, not just feigning interest waiting to get in my two cents. Everything that my friends here talk about is so foreign to me, I can't help but being amazed by literally everything they say. I can't help but think that my lack of caring about relationships in america lately might have something to do with me being burnt out on the same old thing. But I find myself missing that same old stuff. That same old shit that never seemed important at the time. My culture, my home, my friends. Seeing other people loving their own culture, one that I am not a part of, makes me realize the beauty of belonging to something like that, which I have really honestly loathed and hated in the past.
This post was really just to let everyone know where I'm at and that I'm okay, not dead or anything, and that I love and miss almost all of you, even those who the terms we're on because of my past actions are questionable, the same goes.
Please post phone numbers if you want me to give you calls from thailand, since I will hopefully have tons of free time, unlike Taiwan where I basically from waking up (9 am) to going to bed (3 am) I have been dragged around by different friends everyday. So take care everyone! I love you all!