i can hear the bells...
i gotta pee.
okay im back. dont you hate that when your about to start something and then you all of a sudden realize you have to pee? yea, such is life i guess...
WARNING: depending on my patience, this may turn out to be another epic addition to the chronicals of me. there really is a shit ton i have to talk about since my last hugeass post, so we'll see how it goes.
well i'm currently in florida, enjoying the 60 degree weather for a few more hours before i have to fly back to good ole michigan. its fucking COLD there from what i hear, so joy for me. at least i got to get out for a few days and break out my flip flops for one last time this year, lol. my flight down here kinda sucked. actually the plane rides were fine, it was the 4 and a half hour layover in cincinatti that sucked ass. it was only supposed to be 2 and a half but my plane just kept getting delayed and delayed and delayed. thanks parents, for making me fly on the busiest travel day of the entire fucking year. i guess its been the most amount of travel in one day on planes since 9/11. one good thing about it though was the fact that i got to read an ENTIRE BOOK in one day. i have no idea when the last time i was able to do that was. last i can remember was "A Child Called It" when i was in middle school or something. the book was "The Five People You Meet In Heaven" whic was a pretty awesome book, i must say. i really want to see the movie now, i hear its good. i recommend the book to everyone, though. oh, and airports should NOT have so many exciting shops hanging around the gates cause i spent way too much money. i bought like 5 books (not that i usually have time to read) and a sheryl crow greatest hits cd and the dvd of "some like it hot". right now im over halfway through my second book "when will jesus bring the porkchops?" the latest book by genious comedian George Carlin. seriously, i worship this man, he's the aerostotle (sp?) of our times! but its been awesome to detox from life a little and read for leisure here in florida. thanksgiving down here was weird though, it being warm and all, and not having all of my extended family. that and the fact that nobody planned on cooking so we orded a boston market thanksgiving dinner! how lazy is my fucking family?!? oh well, it was still good, lol. i spent some time today reading poolside, but to be honest, most of my florida hours were dedicated towards sleeping, horribly enough. i think ive definatly caught up though, which is excellent considering the challenges i face when i go home...
good transition, sara! my life as of late, save the last two days, has been stressful as all hell. i was involved in three shows simultaneously as well as school and social life. way to go overbooking yourself. im to that point wehre i always get that i have all this stuff hanging over my head so i dont even want to start, so i do a little of everything and everything suffers. hopefully this will recharge me though, and i will be ready to attack all my shit.
"you can lead a horse to water" went really well i thought, especailly considering the crazy rehearsal process we went through. when we got to performances, they didnt even really feel like performances to me cause we had been doing runthrus for weeks and weeks already which usually never happens in shows that i'm in. philup (the director) was awesome, i really liked him as a person, and mostly as a director. it was incredible to work with him, regardless. and we got to meet the playwrite, winston, as well, and he reminded me soooo much of my grandpa, it was ridiculous. the only real difference is he was black, lol. oh, and i got the biggest compliment from him too. see, i spoke with a bahamian dialect/accent in the show, which is sort of halfway to a jamaican accent, and difficult to do. i was stressing over it and working on it like crazy the whole time, and when winston saw our dress rehearsal, he said that i sounded just like i was a lady from one of the bahamian islands! like, i would fit right in there! i was so excited cause i was really worried about sounding stupid and wrong, lol. there was a terrible review of the show (and by terrible i mean just horrible written and under-researched) in the grand valley lanthorn, but i didnt mind to much cause there was a huge picture of me and jillian along with the article, lol. it never mentioned my name, but hey, pictures speak a thousand words, right?! overall, it was a really great experience with lots of "peaks and valleys" but well worth it in the end. my legs are thanking me that its over now, cuase i no longer have to stand up frozen for a hour and a half. a lot of friends and family didnt make it to the show which is partially my fault cause i didnt really get the advertisments out there until after the first weekend was over. amanda buckhave and petina brough me flowers on opening night which was such a surprise and SO appreciated! my roomies and jess came which was awesome of them, and my parents and a few other family members came on closing night. it was a good run, im proud of what we were all able to do as a cast and crew.
the day after horse closed, i had "red cross" rehearsal which is the next show i'm performing in. its a student-directed one act that i have a lead role in (theres only three roles anyway, lol). im actually pretty excited about it cause its a different kind of work ive ever been in. its an absurdist piece, so whenever people ask me what its about, its kinda hard to explain it to them, lol. its a physicaly demanding show and my back is yelling at me quite a lot lately. the other kid in it is a freshman and is really having a hard time with his lines and everything, so i hope he's studying like crazy over break. we're already supposed to be off book (after i had three rehearsals) and we cant call for line anymore after sunday, so thats kinda scary. kristen is a really good director, i like her a lot. she has all kinds of good ideas and really seems to have a clear vision of what she's going for. she's also really into expirimenting with lots of different excersizes and things, getting us to explore ourselves and our characters, its really interesting. anyway, that show runs only three days (get out your pencils): December 9th, 10th and 11th. be there or be an asshole, lol. i'll be posting something/sending something out soon hopefully, in flier form.
so the third show i'm working on is the vagina monologues, which thankfully doesnt open until valentines day weekend in february. instead of acting this year, i decided to direct and its presenting some challanges, for sure. first of all, auditions were held, lucky me, on hell/tech week of "horse" which was not fun. it worked out okay though cause i video taped all the auditions since i couldn't be there and that really helped me with my casting decisions. CASTING IS THE MOST DIFFICULT THING ON THE PLANET!! that definately took up several hours of my time. i never realized how hard it would be to have to put all your trust in an actress to do you right. i finally got it down though, and im happy with my girls. rehearsals havent started yet, i need to get on top of that...i emailed all my girls to figure out when the best time to get together is, but im sure my schedual (with "red cross" and all) is gonna be that hardest to work around. im nervous about directing, but i can handle it, i know i can. i figure i probably should have waited to take the directing class first before i took this on, but we'll see. i'm definately gonna be collecting all the advice i can get from different sources though, lol.
then theres school, which honestly, has been suffering lately. thankfully, i dont have that bad of a schedual this semester. for example: i have yet to take a test. i've had quizzes and a few speeches and papers but no tests, so i consider myself pretty damn lucky. i thought this semester was gonna kick my ass! turns out the classes werent the hard part so much, lol. plus, my professors seem to be pretty understanding so far, but we'll see if thats true when i get my grades, lol. i really should be working on my play analysis's (waaaay past due) right now, but...im a glutton for self-inflicted punishment, apparently.
as far as home relations go, there were some roommate issues for awhile but almost everything is at least out in the open now, if not totally resolved. hopefully it all starts to get better cause tension and bullshit is never nice. i think we all just need to understand each other better, accept each other for what we are or how we act and things would run much smoother. oh man, one of the best nights with those crazy kids though was after a dress rehearsal for "horse". i come home, worn out and all, and im greeted with - get this - A POUND OF FUCKING CHEESE!! FONDUE CHEESE!! i about shit a brick, it was amazing. laid out next to it was bite sized dipping things including: bread, pretzles, ham, salami, broccoli, and asparagus (i didnt like that one that much). it was freaking orgasmic, we almost finished the whole thing between five of us. then, we somehow got on the topic of old school boy bands and that escalated to a couple of hours of "rawking out" to 98 degres, the neverending mmmbop (the cd was skipping), the first two backstreet boys cds, and the first two nsync cd's. it was ridiculous. somewhere out there video cameras were brought out which is completely unfair considering we were completely drunk on cheese. there was hardcore booty dancing and even dancing on the pool table!! then suddenly, we had three male drunken visitors that we had never seen before making sweet love to each other and Joe (the six foot inflatable penis) on our floor. one of them with a huge scary gremlin-on-crack sort of mask on. it was insanity. but a damn good time, if i do say so myself.
the new party count is fifteen in thirteen weeks which is madness. we're also up to over 100 empty fifths...we toyed with the idea of calling ourselves alcoholics but we dont drink every day, we dont drink alone, and we dont go to meetings. so we settled with the term "social drunks" lol. i think its fitting. our parties are so funny, its just crazy, lol. we dont have huge blow out parties with kegs and where nobody has any room to breathe. only a few people end up getting sick, if that, and they're not all click-y and seperated like most parties. everyone just hangs out with everyone and they get along. we dont allow wallflowers most of the time, lol. something new and exciting is always happening at our parties, each one we have something else gets added. threesomes, beer pong, making out, same-sex making out, same sex making out with food products, booty dancing, lap dances, drinking games, body shots, all kinds of crazy stuff, but it never gets to wild or uncomfortable really. we had one incident where a security guard showed up (they cant do anything as far as checking ID's or anything) and said that we had to clear out in 15 minutes or else we'd get a violation (whatever that means) for being to loud or wahtever. a lot of people left until there was 20 people or so left and he said that was cool and we went on with our party, lol. it was kidn of a bummer, but i picked back up pretty quick after that anyway.
our halloween party was...fun but weird i guess you could say. i recall saying how i needed an awesome costume in my last post and boy did i get one! my hero, alex page came over and saved my life by making me one of the sweetest costumes i'd ever seen. i, my friends, was dressed as none other than: THE KOOL-AID MAN! it was fucking SWEET!! it was like a sandwitch board thing that i wore on my shoulders and the front had the face and the back had "OH YEAAHH!" written on it. i said "oh yeaahh!" probably 103585y3030 times that night, lol. it was my toast for every shot i took, and i took quite a lot. i definately got to a very happy state of drunkeness that night, the perfect buzz, without getting sick at all. i also dont remember a lot of what happened that night, not because i was too drunk, but becasue i was sucking face with some kid nikki works with at olga's all night, lol. i have no idea how it started or anything, but i wasnt in the mood to care either, lol. he kept trying to get me to go downstairs to my room but i was definately not having any of that that night, lol. i guess bryce and ray got all protective like "is this okay?? should we allow this??" haha, it was cute. my cousin joel even cornered him at one point and was liek "treat my cousin right" or some shit and i hit him, lol. it was funny and crazy and TOTALLY akward since then when he's come to our parties. he was trying to be all up on me the following week but i had to reject him all night. nothing against him as a person necissarily but he's a smoker and thats a deal breaker from the start. i was drunk the first night so it didnt really bother me enough to stop, but mama dont play that, lol. but now everyone teases me about him, especially since ray calls him "mario", as in nintendo, lol. asshole.
oh man, the most exciting part of my life lately was my trip to chicago with kayla. we drove down last tuesday after my rehearsal and stayed with a friend of my friend at school, whom i had never met. wednesday we went to...THE HANSON CONCERT AT THE HOUSE OF BLUES!! oh my fucking god. it was incredible. first of all, sarah (the girl we stayed with) was totally awesome and we got along with her and her roommate matt really well. she drew us all kinds of maps and was really helpful helping us find our way around the city, and just an awesome person in general (thanks aubrey for hooking us up!). me and kayla left the apartment wednesday morning and went and had a huge breakfast of hashbrowns and texas toast at a diner called Salt and Pepper to start out the day. then we got on "the L" which is the overground subway system in chicago to go downtown. we got off and decided to go to the HoB (house of blues) right away to check out the situation. let me add here, that it was FUCKING FREEZING OUTSIDE!! we didnt know if there would be a coat check or anything at the HoB so i left my purse and everything at home nad just took a hoodie and gloves which was NOT ENOUGH to battle the elements, let me tell you. anyway, in the HoB gift shop, we find out about this thing called "pass the line" wehre if we spend thirty dollars each in the gift shop or just buy an entree at the restaraunt we could skip waiting in the general admission line and the first 250 people get in who do this get in first. so either spend $60 on crap or go buy more food for our already full bodies. based on price, we went adn bought more food (it came out to like $13 total) and went to wait in line. two entrees, two $2 hot coacoa's, and THREE FUCKING HOURS later, they finally open the doors to the place. we were freezing our tits off, let me tell you. but the show that we saw was completely fucking worth it. the two opening badns were good and all, but hanson seriously blew my ovaries out of asshole. when the curtins opened and they started, zac was on piano and taylor was on drums! i was like SCORE! considering we were on the piano side and i had pushed and elbowed my way to second row, behind just one girl (thank you punk rock concerts, lol.) being at this concert was just incredible. it has to be what it feels like for hardcore christians to go and visit the vadican and shake hands wiht the pope or something, it was religious for sure. they were so close and so passionate and so fucking incredible, there are just no words to cover it. at one point, i almost fell twenty or so times during one song cause they were all huddled on one microphone singing an oldies song acapella and beautiful harmonies (especially mens' voices) are like the greates aphrodisiac in the world to me. my knees just kept giving out below me, i couldnt help it. if everyone wasnt all smashed together like they were, i woulda fell falt on my ass - kayla could even feel me falling. i get chills just writing this, you dont even know. you all can say "oh, hanson, what girls, oh mmmbop," etc etc, i really dont care what you think. they are fucking incredible and no one really understand what they mean to me....wow...
the next day started out tragically but got WAY better, lol. kayla went to get the car that morning that was like two blocks away, and didnt make it back to the apartment until like an hour and a half later! she didnt take her purse so she was left without a lisence, without money and her phone died! she was lost as fuck and i had no idea what to do sicne i was the only one left in the apartment. i freaked out and tried to go look for her but i had no idea where she was. all i knew is that right before her phone died she was at some gas station adn she had no idea wehre. so i jammed something in the door so it wouldnt lock, hailed a cab that was passing me (the first time i ever got to do that!), and drove to the nearest gas station where they told me they hadn't seen her. by the time i got back to the house in the cab, she was back and i was so freaking relieved! my first thoughts were "great, kayla was raped and murdered in an alley somewhere and she has my car too! FUCKING GREAT!" but it was all okay, lol. we were trying to get an early start that morning too cause we heard that hanson was supposed to be at sarah's schools radio station and we might get a chance to meet them. we were sure we had missed them after the whole fiasco but i said fuck it, lets try anyway. thank god we did cause they were still there!! we (along with like 10 other fans) got to stand five feet away from them and look at them through the glass as they did the interview and then sorta chased them to the next building over wehre they were doing a question/answer thing before they screened their new documentary (we werent allowed into that cause we werent students of that college). but we got to look through another window at them and take some really kick ass pictures! then, before we knew it, they were walking right by us! hanson! they were one fucking foot away from us in this hallway! i dont know how i kept breathing, lol. zac walks in the door first and he goes "Heeey Guys..." like woah, look at these freaks, lol. then he goes "its pretty cold out there, huh?" and we're all like yeah, definately, etc. then he goes (the nerve of this asshole) "you need bigger jackets!" FUCK YOU DUDE! did YOU stand out in the freezing cold for three hours to see your own ass?!?! NO! lol. anyway, i got an excellent picture of him as the elevator doors were closing grinning his cheesy ass grin while looking right at me. heart. melt. oh yeah. it was an AMAZING morning. then we had to jump in the car and race back up to allendale casue i had a fucking "horse" performance to do that night! how i made it thorough that, i'll never know.
my computer is dead. i realized i never said anything about that in here. im using my dad's lap top right now, but mine at home is a paper-weight currently. i still maintain that WoW (world of warcraft) killed it cause ray left it on all night long. hopefully bryce can get all my memory and hard-drive stuff off of it before i send it in to circuit city and make a huge fucking stink about it (considering this is the third time i've had to send it in cause its a piece of shit). so thats why i ahvent been online a lot if anyone was wondering. i just keep taking beths computer hostage periodically to check my email, facebook, and LJ.
i finally got to finish all six chapters of angels in america nad its FUCKING INCREDIBLE, i'll have to go and buy that soon. everyone should go rent it and watch it cause it rocks.
i gotta pee again...
back now. lets see what else have you missed out on knowing about my life in the past month and 9 days? oh i saw the movie proof with maria, megan smith, shavonne, and betz. it was so fun hanging out with them! we went to main street pub before hand and betz bulldozed me out of the booth, it was ridiculous. we were gonna be late to the movie, but i got us there in no time, lol. the movie was pretty good, actually. i was skeptical cause i knew the play really well (i even performed a scene from it last year in my acting 1 class) and i didnt know if gwenyth could pull it off. but it was really good overall, and they stuck to the play well. everytime i see jake gyllenhall, i like him more and more and more. he's damn sexy and a really good/believable actor. i enjoy him.
speaking of maria, we've gotten super close lately and its awesome. a week or two ago, she came over and we stayed up until like 5 in the morning girl-talking about life and boys and everything under the sun, it was crazy! we just looked up at some point and it was five in the morning! time seriously flew and it was awesome. she even survived meeting my family at dinner after "horse" and SITTING IN BETWEEN MY DAD AND MY GRANDPA! i felt bad for putting her in that position, but she came through like a champ, lol, i was proud of her. she's just such an awesome person and i love hanging out with her. we have so much in common that we really shouldnt, lol. i dont know, i love you, my latina lover!! hahaha!
oh, jackie's halloween party was in there as well, at the end of october. it was fun, but kinda weird. first of all, those assholes have NO CLASS and NO TASTE cause i didnt even get a vote for my freaking AMAZING KOOL-AID MAN costume in the contest!! can you believe that shit? everyone at school was like "oh you're totally gonna win!" but no, not one damn vote. screw you people. lol, jk. scott was obviously the winner by far, he was a damn lion! it was awesome. but as far as the whole party went, i dunno. i guess i was really expecting a lot from it, mainly just chill time and catch up time with my close friends all together, etc. and it kinda disapointed me that there was so much drama and crap revolving around the same old bullshit. i just wanted to relax with everyone and there was so much tension, it was really hard, it kinda had everyone on edge for awhile. as the night went on it got better for sure, but i wish everyone wouldnt have gone to bed so early, lol. but hey, thats me, i stay up all hours of the night. it was still fun and good to see everyone again. i wish i coulda stayed later the next day but i had to get back to allendale for my vagina monologue director's orientaion. story of my life, lol.
happy belated (on lj anyway) bday jackie!! im sorry it wasnt awesome, and i wish i coulda come home to see you, but at least now we can make plans for canada sometime!! haha.
relations with friends at home are getting better i think, albiet very slowly. in the past few days, i've talked to scott for like three hours, lol, which is totally awesome. he's getting better and better, even with not completely wonderful news from his therapy people and stuff. i know he's staying positive and will continue to blow all those silly doctors out of the water, lol. i still havent been able to really talk to jackie cause she only calls me in the mornings sometimes when im either not up or in class and cant talk. and whenever i call her in the afternoons or at night, she's always doing something else and cant talk or asleep or something. i feel like ive been making more of an effort lately, but i dont know if she see's it. whatever, one day our scheduals (and the moons) will align adn we'll get it all out. i havent really gotten to talk to rich at all and its breaking my heart. he works all the time and is really busy there usually so i dont like to bug him and when i realize its a monday or wednesday (which i think are still his days off) and i call him, he doesnt pick up or call me back. CALL ME, PUNK!!! i miss you :( i never talk to pammy anymore, or nikki, or nicole, or anyone else, basically. i just dont have enough hours in the day, i'm gonna have to do some major make-up hanging out once holiday break starts, lol.
hmm, what else did i do? i'm sitting here with my little calander/lifeline where i keep everything i do in trying to remember. OH! there was this AWESOME free punk rock concert i got to go to earlier this month in kirkoff (the student center building at my school). it had really good local bands and one bigger/popular band from chicago. it started out with this guy who played acoustic guitar solo and he was awesome, but kinda boring. then there was a band called never say never who were already broken up but somehow got on the bill for the show, so they decided to have a reunion, and they were sweet. then there was a band called Broken Sunday who rocked the shit outta me! their music was fucking kick ass and three of the four guys were way hot, lol. i loved it! i bought their cd and everything. then came Lucky Boys Confusion which was the more popular band from chicago. i guess their pretty big and a lot of people know of them, even though i never had before. they were excellent though, and had the kinda songs that you were singing along with by the end of them, lol. it was so awesome and the exact release that i needed at that moment, since everything was getting really stressful and crazy. i was all sweaty and nasty and it was great, lol. i didnt get to mosh cause i didnt want to lose my perfect spot in the very front, but it was still just fan-fucking-tastic. my friends all thought i was high when i got home, i was so pumped, lol.
i also saw bard to go a few weeks ago and it was cool as hell. (i've used way to many synonyms of the word awesome in this post, im running out, lol). matt, randy, mike, lauren, elicia, and alicia were all fucking hysterical and it was just a pleasure and an honor to see that show. i want to be in bard sooo bad, its gonna be my new goal to get into it before my time at gvsu is up. they did a terrific job though, i was thouroughly (sp?) impressed. it really put me in a reflective state though, cause i started thinking about last year's bard to go. it was the first show i saw at grand valley and i couldnt help but compare my life now to my life then. MADNESS, how one can change so drastically. i do too much thinking for my own good i think though...
so one of my new favorite musicals is an off-broadway show called Naked Boy's Singing! maybe you've heard of it. its a full blown amazing musical with beautiful voices and its performed by several men entirely in the flesh for the whole show. i want to see it...so...bad, lol. for the shock less than for the songs! i bought the soundtrack online without even hearing any of the tunes and im totally in love, they're fucking great! at one point in a song called "members only" they do a sort of fuege (sp?) of all of the different names for penis's...its fucking ridiculously W.O.W. i've played it for like 50 people, including my speech class, funny enough, lol.
okay i could probably go on and on and on but i think this is long enough for this month, and my plane for home leaves in exactly six hours and 50 minutes (8am) and im not packed or anything so i should probably get on that, lol. plus i wanna watch a movie. thanks for stickin with me on this november update, lol, if you did at all. pray (if you do that sort of thing) for good weather tomorrow so i dont get delayed in atlanta for 10 hours trying to come home! bye all!
p.s. WOW! sorry...this was way fucking longer than i thought it was. props to those of you who actually read it, cause i probably wouldnt have, lol. damn...i talk a lot...
okay im back. dont you hate that when your about to start something and then you all of a sudden realize you have to pee? yea, such is life i guess...
WARNING: depending on my patience, this may turn out to be another epic addition to the chronicals of me. there really is a shit ton i have to talk about since my last hugeass post, so we'll see how it goes.
well i'm currently in florida, enjoying the 60 degree weather for a few more hours before i have to fly back to good ole michigan. its fucking COLD there from what i hear, so joy for me. at least i got to get out for a few days and break out my flip flops for one last time this year, lol. my flight down here kinda sucked. actually the plane rides were fine, it was the 4 and a half hour layover in cincinatti that sucked ass. it was only supposed to be 2 and a half but my plane just kept getting delayed and delayed and delayed. thanks parents, for making me fly on the busiest travel day of the entire fucking year. i guess its been the most amount of travel in one day on planes since 9/11. one good thing about it though was the fact that i got to read an ENTIRE BOOK in one day. i have no idea when the last time i was able to do that was. last i can remember was "A Child Called It" when i was in middle school or something. the book was "The Five People You Meet In Heaven" whic was a pretty awesome book, i must say. i really want to see the movie now, i hear its good. i recommend the book to everyone, though. oh, and airports should NOT have so many exciting shops hanging around the gates cause i spent way too much money. i bought like 5 books (not that i usually have time to read) and a sheryl crow greatest hits cd and the dvd of "some like it hot". right now im over halfway through my second book "when will jesus bring the porkchops?" the latest book by genious comedian George Carlin. seriously, i worship this man, he's the aerostotle (sp?) of our times! but its been awesome to detox from life a little and read for leisure here in florida. thanksgiving down here was weird though, it being warm and all, and not having all of my extended family. that and the fact that nobody planned on cooking so we orded a boston market thanksgiving dinner! how lazy is my fucking family?!? oh well, it was still good, lol. i spent some time today reading poolside, but to be honest, most of my florida hours were dedicated towards sleeping, horribly enough. i think ive definatly caught up though, which is excellent considering the challenges i face when i go home...
good transition, sara! my life as of late, save the last two days, has been stressful as all hell. i was involved in three shows simultaneously as well as school and social life. way to go overbooking yourself. im to that point wehre i always get that i have all this stuff hanging over my head so i dont even want to start, so i do a little of everything and everything suffers. hopefully this will recharge me though, and i will be ready to attack all my shit.
"you can lead a horse to water" went really well i thought, especailly considering the crazy rehearsal process we went through. when we got to performances, they didnt even really feel like performances to me cause we had been doing runthrus for weeks and weeks already which usually never happens in shows that i'm in. philup (the director) was awesome, i really liked him as a person, and mostly as a director. it was incredible to work with him, regardless. and we got to meet the playwrite, winston, as well, and he reminded me soooo much of my grandpa, it was ridiculous. the only real difference is he was black, lol. oh, and i got the biggest compliment from him too. see, i spoke with a bahamian dialect/accent in the show, which is sort of halfway to a jamaican accent, and difficult to do. i was stressing over it and working on it like crazy the whole time, and when winston saw our dress rehearsal, he said that i sounded just like i was a lady from one of the bahamian islands! like, i would fit right in there! i was so excited cause i was really worried about sounding stupid and wrong, lol. there was a terrible review of the show (and by terrible i mean just horrible written and under-researched) in the grand valley lanthorn, but i didnt mind to much cause there was a huge picture of me and jillian along with the article, lol. it never mentioned my name, but hey, pictures speak a thousand words, right?! overall, it was a really great experience with lots of "peaks and valleys" but well worth it in the end. my legs are thanking me that its over now, cuase i no longer have to stand up frozen for a hour and a half. a lot of friends and family didnt make it to the show which is partially my fault cause i didnt really get the advertisments out there until after the first weekend was over. amanda buckhave and petina brough me flowers on opening night which was such a surprise and SO appreciated! my roomies and jess came which was awesome of them, and my parents and a few other family members came on closing night. it was a good run, im proud of what we were all able to do as a cast and crew.
the day after horse closed, i had "red cross" rehearsal which is the next show i'm performing in. its a student-directed one act that i have a lead role in (theres only three roles anyway, lol). im actually pretty excited about it cause its a different kind of work ive ever been in. its an absurdist piece, so whenever people ask me what its about, its kinda hard to explain it to them, lol. its a physicaly demanding show and my back is yelling at me quite a lot lately. the other kid in it is a freshman and is really having a hard time with his lines and everything, so i hope he's studying like crazy over break. we're already supposed to be off book (after i had three rehearsals) and we cant call for line anymore after sunday, so thats kinda scary. kristen is a really good director, i like her a lot. she has all kinds of good ideas and really seems to have a clear vision of what she's going for. she's also really into expirimenting with lots of different excersizes and things, getting us to explore ourselves and our characters, its really interesting. anyway, that show runs only three days (get out your pencils): December 9th, 10th and 11th. be there or be an asshole, lol. i'll be posting something/sending something out soon hopefully, in flier form.
so the third show i'm working on is the vagina monologues, which thankfully doesnt open until valentines day weekend in february. instead of acting this year, i decided to direct and its presenting some challanges, for sure. first of all, auditions were held, lucky me, on hell/tech week of "horse" which was not fun. it worked out okay though cause i video taped all the auditions since i couldn't be there and that really helped me with my casting decisions. CASTING IS THE MOST DIFFICULT THING ON THE PLANET!! that definately took up several hours of my time. i never realized how hard it would be to have to put all your trust in an actress to do you right. i finally got it down though, and im happy with my girls. rehearsals havent started yet, i need to get on top of that...i emailed all my girls to figure out when the best time to get together is, but im sure my schedual (with "red cross" and all) is gonna be that hardest to work around. im nervous about directing, but i can handle it, i know i can. i figure i probably should have waited to take the directing class first before i took this on, but we'll see. i'm definately gonna be collecting all the advice i can get from different sources though, lol.
then theres school, which honestly, has been suffering lately. thankfully, i dont have that bad of a schedual this semester. for example: i have yet to take a test. i've had quizzes and a few speeches and papers but no tests, so i consider myself pretty damn lucky. i thought this semester was gonna kick my ass! turns out the classes werent the hard part so much, lol. plus, my professors seem to be pretty understanding so far, but we'll see if thats true when i get my grades, lol. i really should be working on my play analysis's (waaaay past due) right now, but...im a glutton for self-inflicted punishment, apparently.
as far as home relations go, there were some roommate issues for awhile but almost everything is at least out in the open now, if not totally resolved. hopefully it all starts to get better cause tension and bullshit is never nice. i think we all just need to understand each other better, accept each other for what we are or how we act and things would run much smoother. oh man, one of the best nights with those crazy kids though was after a dress rehearsal for "horse". i come home, worn out and all, and im greeted with - get this - A POUND OF FUCKING CHEESE!! FONDUE CHEESE!! i about shit a brick, it was amazing. laid out next to it was bite sized dipping things including: bread, pretzles, ham, salami, broccoli, and asparagus (i didnt like that one that much). it was freaking orgasmic, we almost finished the whole thing between five of us. then, we somehow got on the topic of old school boy bands and that escalated to a couple of hours of "rawking out" to 98 degres, the neverending mmmbop (the cd was skipping), the first two backstreet boys cds, and the first two nsync cd's. it was ridiculous. somewhere out there video cameras were brought out which is completely unfair considering we were completely drunk on cheese. there was hardcore booty dancing and even dancing on the pool table!! then suddenly, we had three male drunken visitors that we had never seen before making sweet love to each other and Joe (the six foot inflatable penis) on our floor. one of them with a huge scary gremlin-on-crack sort of mask on. it was insanity. but a damn good time, if i do say so myself.
the new party count is fifteen in thirteen weeks which is madness. we're also up to over 100 empty fifths...we toyed with the idea of calling ourselves alcoholics but we dont drink every day, we dont drink alone, and we dont go to meetings. so we settled with the term "social drunks" lol. i think its fitting. our parties are so funny, its just crazy, lol. we dont have huge blow out parties with kegs and where nobody has any room to breathe. only a few people end up getting sick, if that, and they're not all click-y and seperated like most parties. everyone just hangs out with everyone and they get along. we dont allow wallflowers most of the time, lol. something new and exciting is always happening at our parties, each one we have something else gets added. threesomes, beer pong, making out, same-sex making out, same sex making out with food products, booty dancing, lap dances, drinking games, body shots, all kinds of crazy stuff, but it never gets to wild or uncomfortable really. we had one incident where a security guard showed up (they cant do anything as far as checking ID's or anything) and said that we had to clear out in 15 minutes or else we'd get a violation (whatever that means) for being to loud or wahtever. a lot of people left until there was 20 people or so left and he said that was cool and we went on with our party, lol. it was kidn of a bummer, but i picked back up pretty quick after that anyway.
our halloween party was...fun but weird i guess you could say. i recall saying how i needed an awesome costume in my last post and boy did i get one! my hero, alex page came over and saved my life by making me one of the sweetest costumes i'd ever seen. i, my friends, was dressed as none other than: THE KOOL-AID MAN! it was fucking SWEET!! it was like a sandwitch board thing that i wore on my shoulders and the front had the face and the back had "OH YEAAHH!" written on it. i said "oh yeaahh!" probably 103585y3030 times that night, lol. it was my toast for every shot i took, and i took quite a lot. i definately got to a very happy state of drunkeness that night, the perfect buzz, without getting sick at all. i also dont remember a lot of what happened that night, not because i was too drunk, but becasue i was sucking face with some kid nikki works with at olga's all night, lol. i have no idea how it started or anything, but i wasnt in the mood to care either, lol. he kept trying to get me to go downstairs to my room but i was definately not having any of that that night, lol. i guess bryce and ray got all protective like "is this okay?? should we allow this??" haha, it was cute. my cousin joel even cornered him at one point and was liek "treat my cousin right" or some shit and i hit him, lol. it was funny and crazy and TOTALLY akward since then when he's come to our parties. he was trying to be all up on me the following week but i had to reject him all night. nothing against him as a person necissarily but he's a smoker and thats a deal breaker from the start. i was drunk the first night so it didnt really bother me enough to stop, but mama dont play that, lol. but now everyone teases me about him, especially since ray calls him "mario", as in nintendo, lol. asshole.
oh man, the most exciting part of my life lately was my trip to chicago with kayla. we drove down last tuesday after my rehearsal and stayed with a friend of my friend at school, whom i had never met. wednesday we went to...THE HANSON CONCERT AT THE HOUSE OF BLUES!! oh my fucking god. it was incredible. first of all, sarah (the girl we stayed with) was totally awesome and we got along with her and her roommate matt really well. she drew us all kinds of maps and was really helpful helping us find our way around the city, and just an awesome person in general (thanks aubrey for hooking us up!). me and kayla left the apartment wednesday morning and went and had a huge breakfast of hashbrowns and texas toast at a diner called Salt and Pepper to start out the day. then we got on "the L" which is the overground subway system in chicago to go downtown. we got off and decided to go to the HoB (house of blues) right away to check out the situation. let me add here, that it was FUCKING FREEZING OUTSIDE!! we didnt know if there would be a coat check or anything at the HoB so i left my purse and everything at home nad just took a hoodie and gloves which was NOT ENOUGH to battle the elements, let me tell you. anyway, in the HoB gift shop, we find out about this thing called "pass the line" wehre if we spend thirty dollars each in the gift shop or just buy an entree at the restaraunt we could skip waiting in the general admission line and the first 250 people get in who do this get in first. so either spend $60 on crap or go buy more food for our already full bodies. based on price, we went adn bought more food (it came out to like $13 total) and went to wait in line. two entrees, two $2 hot coacoa's, and THREE FUCKING HOURS later, they finally open the doors to the place. we were freezing our tits off, let me tell you. but the show that we saw was completely fucking worth it. the two opening badns were good and all, but hanson seriously blew my ovaries out of asshole. when the curtins opened and they started, zac was on piano and taylor was on drums! i was like SCORE! considering we were on the piano side and i had pushed and elbowed my way to second row, behind just one girl (thank you punk rock concerts, lol.) being at this concert was just incredible. it has to be what it feels like for hardcore christians to go and visit the vadican and shake hands wiht the pope or something, it was religious for sure. they were so close and so passionate and so fucking incredible, there are just no words to cover it. at one point, i almost fell twenty or so times during one song cause they were all huddled on one microphone singing an oldies song acapella and beautiful harmonies (especially mens' voices) are like the greates aphrodisiac in the world to me. my knees just kept giving out below me, i couldnt help it. if everyone wasnt all smashed together like they were, i woulda fell falt on my ass - kayla could even feel me falling. i get chills just writing this, you dont even know. you all can say "oh, hanson, what girls, oh mmmbop," etc etc, i really dont care what you think. they are fucking incredible and no one really understand what they mean to me....wow...
the next day started out tragically but got WAY better, lol. kayla went to get the car that morning that was like two blocks away, and didnt make it back to the apartment until like an hour and a half later! she didnt take her purse so she was left without a lisence, without money and her phone died! she was lost as fuck and i had no idea what to do sicne i was the only one left in the apartment. i freaked out and tried to go look for her but i had no idea where she was. all i knew is that right before her phone died she was at some gas station adn she had no idea wehre. so i jammed something in the door so it wouldnt lock, hailed a cab that was passing me (the first time i ever got to do that!), and drove to the nearest gas station where they told me they hadn't seen her. by the time i got back to the house in the cab, she was back and i was so freaking relieved! my first thoughts were "great, kayla was raped and murdered in an alley somewhere and she has my car too! FUCKING GREAT!" but it was all okay, lol. we were trying to get an early start that morning too cause we heard that hanson was supposed to be at sarah's schools radio station and we might get a chance to meet them. we were sure we had missed them after the whole fiasco but i said fuck it, lets try anyway. thank god we did cause they were still there!! we (along with like 10 other fans) got to stand five feet away from them and look at them through the glass as they did the interview and then sorta chased them to the next building over wehre they were doing a question/answer thing before they screened their new documentary (we werent allowed into that cause we werent students of that college). but we got to look through another window at them and take some really kick ass pictures! then, before we knew it, they were walking right by us! hanson! they were one fucking foot away from us in this hallway! i dont know how i kept breathing, lol. zac walks in the door first and he goes "Heeey Guys..." like woah, look at these freaks, lol. then he goes "its pretty cold out there, huh?" and we're all like yeah, definately, etc. then he goes (the nerve of this asshole) "you need bigger jackets!" FUCK YOU DUDE! did YOU stand out in the freezing cold for three hours to see your own ass?!?! NO! lol. anyway, i got an excellent picture of him as the elevator doors were closing grinning his cheesy ass grin while looking right at me. heart. melt. oh yeah. it was an AMAZING morning. then we had to jump in the car and race back up to allendale casue i had a fucking "horse" performance to do that night! how i made it thorough that, i'll never know.
my computer is dead. i realized i never said anything about that in here. im using my dad's lap top right now, but mine at home is a paper-weight currently. i still maintain that WoW (world of warcraft) killed it cause ray left it on all night long. hopefully bryce can get all my memory and hard-drive stuff off of it before i send it in to circuit city and make a huge fucking stink about it (considering this is the third time i've had to send it in cause its a piece of shit). so thats why i ahvent been online a lot if anyone was wondering. i just keep taking beths computer hostage periodically to check my email, facebook, and LJ.
i finally got to finish all six chapters of angels in america nad its FUCKING INCREDIBLE, i'll have to go and buy that soon. everyone should go rent it and watch it cause it rocks.
i gotta pee again...
back now. lets see what else have you missed out on knowing about my life in the past month and 9 days? oh i saw the movie proof with maria, megan smith, shavonne, and betz. it was so fun hanging out with them! we went to main street pub before hand and betz bulldozed me out of the booth, it was ridiculous. we were gonna be late to the movie, but i got us there in no time, lol. the movie was pretty good, actually. i was skeptical cause i knew the play really well (i even performed a scene from it last year in my acting 1 class) and i didnt know if gwenyth could pull it off. but it was really good overall, and they stuck to the play well. everytime i see jake gyllenhall, i like him more and more and more. he's damn sexy and a really good/believable actor. i enjoy him.
speaking of maria, we've gotten super close lately and its awesome. a week or two ago, she came over and we stayed up until like 5 in the morning girl-talking about life and boys and everything under the sun, it was crazy! we just looked up at some point and it was five in the morning! time seriously flew and it was awesome. she even survived meeting my family at dinner after "horse" and SITTING IN BETWEEN MY DAD AND MY GRANDPA! i felt bad for putting her in that position, but she came through like a champ, lol, i was proud of her. she's just such an awesome person and i love hanging out with her. we have so much in common that we really shouldnt, lol. i dont know, i love you, my latina lover!! hahaha!
oh, jackie's halloween party was in there as well, at the end of october. it was fun, but kinda weird. first of all, those assholes have NO CLASS and NO TASTE cause i didnt even get a vote for my freaking AMAZING KOOL-AID MAN costume in the contest!! can you believe that shit? everyone at school was like "oh you're totally gonna win!" but no, not one damn vote. screw you people. lol, jk. scott was obviously the winner by far, he was a damn lion! it was awesome. but as far as the whole party went, i dunno. i guess i was really expecting a lot from it, mainly just chill time and catch up time with my close friends all together, etc. and it kinda disapointed me that there was so much drama and crap revolving around the same old bullshit. i just wanted to relax with everyone and there was so much tension, it was really hard, it kinda had everyone on edge for awhile. as the night went on it got better for sure, but i wish everyone wouldnt have gone to bed so early, lol. but hey, thats me, i stay up all hours of the night. it was still fun and good to see everyone again. i wish i coulda stayed later the next day but i had to get back to allendale for my vagina monologue director's orientaion. story of my life, lol.
happy belated (on lj anyway) bday jackie!! im sorry it wasnt awesome, and i wish i coulda come home to see you, but at least now we can make plans for canada sometime!! haha.
relations with friends at home are getting better i think, albiet very slowly. in the past few days, i've talked to scott for like three hours, lol, which is totally awesome. he's getting better and better, even with not completely wonderful news from his therapy people and stuff. i know he's staying positive and will continue to blow all those silly doctors out of the water, lol. i still havent been able to really talk to jackie cause she only calls me in the mornings sometimes when im either not up or in class and cant talk. and whenever i call her in the afternoons or at night, she's always doing something else and cant talk or asleep or something. i feel like ive been making more of an effort lately, but i dont know if she see's it. whatever, one day our scheduals (and the moons) will align adn we'll get it all out. i havent really gotten to talk to rich at all and its breaking my heart. he works all the time and is really busy there usually so i dont like to bug him and when i realize its a monday or wednesday (which i think are still his days off) and i call him, he doesnt pick up or call me back. CALL ME, PUNK!!! i miss you :( i never talk to pammy anymore, or nikki, or nicole, or anyone else, basically. i just dont have enough hours in the day, i'm gonna have to do some major make-up hanging out once holiday break starts, lol.
hmm, what else did i do? i'm sitting here with my little calander/lifeline where i keep everything i do in trying to remember. OH! there was this AWESOME free punk rock concert i got to go to earlier this month in kirkoff (the student center building at my school). it had really good local bands and one bigger/popular band from chicago. it started out with this guy who played acoustic guitar solo and he was awesome, but kinda boring. then there was a band called never say never who were already broken up but somehow got on the bill for the show, so they decided to have a reunion, and they were sweet. then there was a band called Broken Sunday who rocked the shit outta me! their music was fucking kick ass and three of the four guys were way hot, lol. i loved it! i bought their cd and everything. then came Lucky Boys Confusion which was the more popular band from chicago. i guess their pretty big and a lot of people know of them, even though i never had before. they were excellent though, and had the kinda songs that you were singing along with by the end of them, lol. it was so awesome and the exact release that i needed at that moment, since everything was getting really stressful and crazy. i was all sweaty and nasty and it was great, lol. i didnt get to mosh cause i didnt want to lose my perfect spot in the very front, but it was still just fan-fucking-tastic. my friends all thought i was high when i got home, i was so pumped, lol.
i also saw bard to go a few weeks ago and it was cool as hell. (i've used way to many synonyms of the word awesome in this post, im running out, lol). matt, randy, mike, lauren, elicia, and alicia were all fucking hysterical and it was just a pleasure and an honor to see that show. i want to be in bard sooo bad, its gonna be my new goal to get into it before my time at gvsu is up. they did a terrific job though, i was thouroughly (sp?) impressed. it really put me in a reflective state though, cause i started thinking about last year's bard to go. it was the first show i saw at grand valley and i couldnt help but compare my life now to my life then. MADNESS, how one can change so drastically. i do too much thinking for my own good i think though...
so one of my new favorite musicals is an off-broadway show called Naked Boy's Singing! maybe you've heard of it. its a full blown amazing musical with beautiful voices and its performed by several men entirely in the flesh for the whole show. i want to see it...so...bad, lol. for the shock less than for the songs! i bought the soundtrack online without even hearing any of the tunes and im totally in love, they're fucking great! at one point in a song called "members only" they do a sort of fuege (sp?) of all of the different names for penis's...its fucking ridiculously W.O.W. i've played it for like 50 people, including my speech class, funny enough, lol.
okay i could probably go on and on and on but i think this is long enough for this month, and my plane for home leaves in exactly six hours and 50 minutes (8am) and im not packed or anything so i should probably get on that, lol. plus i wanna watch a movie. thanks for stickin with me on this november update, lol, if you did at all. pray (if you do that sort of thing) for good weather tomorrow so i dont get delayed in atlanta for 10 hours trying to come home! bye all!
p.s. WOW! sorry...this was way fucking longer than i thought it was. props to those of you who actually read it, cause i probably wouldnt have, lol. damn...i talk a lot...