Risks...
Today I was crocheting and fixing my little sister's computer at the same time. I felt like a living anachronism. Some sick combination of grandmother and computer nerd. Even though deep down I am neither. Hell, superficially I am neither.
Anyway...
I can't believe I'm still up. It's 2:56 a.m.. I am awake. I am not tired. This is so unlike me.
You know the kid at the sleepover that always falls asleep first so you can stick his or her underwear in the fridge and plaster makeup all over their face? That's me. I do not stay up into the night. Usually because I am doing something the next morning. This break has been so different for me. I have nothing to do and I don't know what to do with myself as a result.
The empty gaps in schedule have led to excessive introspective thought though. I've come to realize that I'm so wrapped up in things to do, and obligations and increments of time that I never take risks. I'm so careful and calculated and I always do the right thing.
I never stay out drinking all night, I always check in with my parents (although I do not always check in with complete honesty), I examine every inch of a situation that involves breaking the rules before I proceed with it, I am the responsible one.
I wish I was brave enough to fuck it all. Fuck it all and do what I want when I want without considering consequence.
This song-Blue eyes. It's making my stomach do flip flops-it's brilliant.
Anyway...
I can't believe I'm still up. It's 2:56 a.m.. I am awake. I am not tired. This is so unlike me.
You know the kid at the sleepover that always falls asleep first so you can stick his or her underwear in the fridge and plaster makeup all over their face? That's me. I do not stay up into the night. Usually because I am doing something the next morning. This break has been so different for me. I have nothing to do and I don't know what to do with myself as a result.
The empty gaps in schedule have led to excessive introspective thought though. I've come to realize that I'm so wrapped up in things to do, and obligations and increments of time that I never take risks. I'm so careful and calculated and I always do the right thing.
I never stay out drinking all night, I always check in with my parents (although I do not always check in with complete honesty), I examine every inch of a situation that involves breaking the rules before I proceed with it, I am the responsible one.
I wish I was brave enough to fuck it all. Fuck it all and do what I want when I want without considering consequence.
This song-Blue eyes. It's making my stomach do flip flops-it's brilliant.