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Ah, yeah, I'm really good at this updating thing. Um.
Well I started my journey into getting my teeth fixed? Did I mention it's gonna end up costing me about $50k? Cause yeah, it's gonna end up costing me about $50k. Ouchies. Got five teeth extracted last week... and then ended up with dry socket in a couple and let me tell you HOLY HELL THAT IS THE WORST PAIN I HAVE EVER. EVER. EXPERIENCED. IN MY LIFE. I just... wow. When I got my wisdom teeth out I had zero problems, so I was hoping this would be the same. Well anyways, it's much better now. I just need to catch up on sleep and eating lol. The worst was probably Saturday. And my stubborn ass worked Saturday and Sunday lol. I'm dumb. Oh well.
Tomorrow I get to get my infected ingrown toenail removed! From the same toe as last time. Same side even. Ugh. So that will also be fun. I have the weekend off of work until Sunday so hopefully I'll be good by then. I already don't remember the last time much but I don't recall having any problems.
I'm just slowly removing body parts lately I guess!
Hm hm hm. What else? It's been mostly work. I'm actually doing pretty well this summer. Since well, everyone has been fired or quit by now I can pretty good pickings on awesome shifts. Or as awesome as they can get over summer, I guess. AH but league season! Just a month away now! Then suddenly I'll be rich again! minus the, ya know, $50k in dental shit
I sounds like I'll be working my Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday leagues, and then Saturday nights as the main bartender. WTF I'm gonna be the main bartender on the busiest shift oh god what am I getting myself into why. I pretend I'm totally confident about it to my managers but... lol no. Ah but they hired a new guy, he hasnt started yet... he'll be bar and serving and with me on Saturdays... and I hear he just pure gorgeous perfection. Army guy so all muscley unf I am okay with that. Hopefully he has a personality though cause I already plan on marrying him so that would suck if he was bland.
Ehem anyways. I've been in a huge huge depressive funk lately. About money I guess? It's really not about the money itself though. It's more that I'm dying inside on the realization that its been forever since I've been on a trip, I have zero planned, and I don't know when I'll be able to go on another one. Like... it might be years.
Yeah.
This is the most devastating thing to me and I can't even really explain it. I spoiled myself so hard. I know I'm pretty lucky (VERY lucky) to have been able to do everything I've done this "early" in life, especially considering it's been all on my own dime. No family help or loans or anything. But now it's just... there's still so much left? Ya know? And I know I'm making the "right" choice by being proactive in my health and shit but it's just really really hard. There are too many things I still want to do, and too many people I really miss and NEED to see, and it's just... it's not gonna happen.
The Dir en grey tour in November, I don't think I can even afford to hit up Chicago lol. So I'm glad theres a Minneapolis date! But still, more than one would be nice.
Then again, first world problems. I'm not doing to bad for myself all in all.
My parents ARE going to help me with the dental bills. I'm reluctant to accept their money but... it is a lot of money. And since my Grandpa died they inherited a good chunk. I just feel so fucking terrible about it though. I'm gonna try to do most of it myself. I'll get dental insurance next year which will also help. But it's still gonna end up being at LEAST a year or two worth of salary for me gone. As such, I wont be moving out any time soon...
I'm also thinking about job hunting, finding me a nice little office day job. I have NEVER job hunted in my life. I'm 27 and I don't have a resume. Never been drug tested, never background checked. (really, my "interview process" at Southtown was a joke lol) I don't know how to job hunt lol. But it would be nice to have a "real" job and eventually pull myself out of the sinking ship that is Southtown. If I could have a Mon-Fri day job, still work my three leagues and bartend Saturdays for this season... well, I'd be worn out I'm sure but it would definitely be doable and money would be nice. And stability and a job where maybe I can like, move up. Make a career of sorts of. Find a husband if this sexy Ken-doll new boy doesn't work out lol. Shut up my priorities are great.
I should probably learn to drive, that might help. You know, be a real adult instead of this fake one. I'll be 28 in a month and a half oh god kill me.
Well this weekend I have OFF! Going up on Friday for some Karaoke with the peeps. Then Saturday looks like a wonderous KHANS! Khans khans khans khans khaaaaaans!
My favorite color of them moment is purple. I wish I could dye my hair purple. I need purple clothes. I should go shopping.
Well I started my journey into getting my teeth fixed? Did I mention it's gonna end up costing me about $50k? Cause yeah, it's gonna end up costing me about $50k. Ouchies. Got five teeth extracted last week... and then ended up with dry socket in a couple and let me tell you HOLY HELL THAT IS THE WORST PAIN I HAVE EVER. EVER. EXPERIENCED. IN MY LIFE. I just... wow. When I got my wisdom teeth out I had zero problems, so I was hoping this would be the same. Well anyways, it's much better now. I just need to catch up on sleep and eating lol. The worst was probably Saturday. And my stubborn ass worked Saturday and Sunday lol. I'm dumb. Oh well.
Tomorrow I get to get my infected ingrown toenail removed! From the same toe as last time. Same side even. Ugh. So that will also be fun. I have the weekend off of work until Sunday so hopefully I'll be good by then. I already don't remember the last time much but I don't recall having any problems.
I'm just slowly removing body parts lately I guess!
Hm hm hm. What else? It's been mostly work. I'm actually doing pretty well this summer. Since well, everyone has been fired or quit by now I can pretty good pickings on awesome shifts. Or as awesome as they can get over summer, I guess. AH but league season! Just a month away now! Then suddenly I'll be rich again! minus the, ya know, $50k in dental shit
I sounds like I'll be working my Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday leagues, and then Saturday nights as the main bartender. WTF I'm gonna be the main bartender on the busiest shift oh god what am I getting myself into why. I pretend I'm totally confident about it to my managers but... lol no. Ah but they hired a new guy, he hasnt started yet... he'll be bar and serving and with me on Saturdays... and I hear he just pure gorgeous perfection. Army guy so all muscley unf I am okay with that. Hopefully he has a personality though cause I already plan on marrying him so that would suck if he was bland.
Ehem anyways. I've been in a huge huge depressive funk lately. About money I guess? It's really not about the money itself though. It's more that I'm dying inside on the realization that its been forever since I've been on a trip, I have zero planned, and I don't know when I'll be able to go on another one. Like... it might be years.
Yeah.
This is the most devastating thing to me and I can't even really explain it. I spoiled myself so hard. I know I'm pretty lucky (VERY lucky) to have been able to do everything I've done this "early" in life, especially considering it's been all on my own dime. No family help or loans or anything. But now it's just... there's still so much left? Ya know? And I know I'm making the "right" choice by being proactive in my health and shit but it's just really really hard. There are too many things I still want to do, and too many people I really miss and NEED to see, and it's just... it's not gonna happen.
The Dir en grey tour in November, I don't think I can even afford to hit up Chicago lol. So I'm glad theres a Minneapolis date! But still, more than one would be nice.
Then again, first world problems. I'm not doing to bad for myself all in all.
My parents ARE going to help me with the dental bills. I'm reluctant to accept their money but... it is a lot of money. And since my Grandpa died they inherited a good chunk. I just feel so fucking terrible about it though. I'm gonna try to do most of it myself. I'll get dental insurance next year which will also help. But it's still gonna end up being at LEAST a year or two worth of salary for me gone. As such, I wont be moving out any time soon...
I'm also thinking about job hunting, finding me a nice little office day job. I have NEVER job hunted in my life. I'm 27 and I don't have a resume. Never been drug tested, never background checked. (really, my "interview process" at Southtown was a joke lol) I don't know how to job hunt lol. But it would be nice to have a "real" job and eventually pull myself out of the sinking ship that is Southtown. If I could have a Mon-Fri day job, still work my three leagues and bartend Saturdays for this season... well, I'd be worn out I'm sure but it would definitely be doable and money would be nice. And stability and a job where maybe I can like, move up. Make a career of sorts of. Find a husband if this sexy Ken-doll new boy doesn't work out lol. Shut up my priorities are great.
I should probably learn to drive, that might help. You know, be a real adult instead of this fake one. I'll be 28 in a month and a half oh god kill me.
Well this weekend I have OFF! Going up on Friday for some Karaoke with the peeps. Then Saturday looks like a wonderous KHANS! Khans khans khans khans khaaaaaans!
My favorite color of them moment is purple. I wish I could dye my hair purple. I need purple clothes. I should go shopping.