ugh..
i absolutly hate it when my mom makes me feel so awful that i just wanna die...
we were talkin abt my birthday and i dunno she was just so cold and stand offish i knew i did something to piss her off and when i asked her she was like "nothings wrong caitlin" in this tone of voice that just went right through me..and then she just walked away and went upstairs..
she was talkin abt goin to the cape and spending it with my 2 cousins from my dads side, kristen and kayla and their mom (not technically my aunt b/c her and my moms bro are divorced).. and when she was talkin abt this i was like "i dont rly wanna spend my bday with ppl i barely see and dont rly know" and the times when i do them it can get REALLY awkward cause its like i dont know them so we cant like instantly become friends.. if anyone understands what i mean..
so i think that rly pissed her off or something.. cause shes walkin around throwing out her silent guilt trip, which sometimes i think is worse than when she actually says something.. i think my mom makes me cry more than anyone/thing else..
GOD! im so selfish.. and i shouldn't blame my mother.. ugh i dunno.. i better go upstairs so my mother doesn't see me crying cause then she'll say im being stupid for crying..
we were talkin abt my birthday and i dunno she was just so cold and stand offish i knew i did something to piss her off and when i asked her she was like "nothings wrong caitlin" in this tone of voice that just went right through me..and then she just walked away and went upstairs..
she was talkin abt goin to the cape and spending it with my 2 cousins from my dads side, kristen and kayla and their mom (not technically my aunt b/c her and my moms bro are divorced).. and when she was talkin abt this i was like "i dont rly wanna spend my bday with ppl i barely see and dont rly know" and the times when i do them it can get REALLY awkward cause its like i dont know them so we cant like instantly become friends.. if anyone understands what i mean..
so i think that rly pissed her off or something.. cause shes walkin around throwing out her silent guilt trip, which sometimes i think is worse than when she actually says something.. i think my mom makes me cry more than anyone/thing else..
GOD! im so selfish.. and i shouldn't blame my mother.. ugh i dunno.. i better go upstairs so my mother doesn't see me crying cause then she'll say im being stupid for crying..