ugh
well life is awful right now...
i just found out i cant play softball this summer which rly depresses me cause i was rly looking forward to it cause i wanted to play on a team which was actually serious because NCDS softball was awfull. So my softball season was totally put to waste and now my summer will be.... aaah this is rly discouraging
also hayley is mad at me.. and i feel like a piece of crap for it.. i dont purposely try to do this.. it just happens.. and im a horrible person for it.. aah GOD why do i let this happen?! im also naive to the fact that there is a problem and i dont know abt it untill it erupts. i kno the little things such as just calling to check in would make a difference.. but for some reason i dont and i just like lie on the couch.. what the hell is wrong with me. I mean i hope she doesn't think i would purposely do this to her.. it just happens.. and i know thats not even close to an excuse.. cause nothing can excuse what i did
AAH IM THE WORST FRIEND IN THE WORLD!!!!!!!
i just found out i cant play softball this summer which rly depresses me cause i was rly looking forward to it cause i wanted to play on a team which was actually serious because NCDS softball was awfull. So my softball season was totally put to waste and now my summer will be.... aaah this is rly discouraging
also hayley is mad at me.. and i feel like a piece of crap for it.. i dont purposely try to do this.. it just happens.. and im a horrible person for it.. aah GOD why do i let this happen?! im also naive to the fact that there is a problem and i dont know abt it untill it erupts. i kno the little things such as just calling to check in would make a difference.. but for some reason i dont and i just like lie on the couch.. what the hell is wrong with me. I mean i hope she doesn't think i would purposely do this to her.. it just happens.. and i know thats not even close to an excuse.. cause nothing can excuse what i did
AAH IM THE WORST FRIEND IN THE WORLD!!!!!!!