Terrified more like it.
I'm scared I'll never ever grow out of messing everything up.
And I always fear I'm doing the wrong thing. And sometimes fear turns to panic and I end up messing things up that were prolly fine before I started freaking out.
I realize that you don't always find time. And I realize the things I say can be hurtful. bottom line I still don't trust you. I asked you not to leave the first time, I told you how scared I was...made myself completely vulnerable, and somehow you still completely tore me apart. And for what? because you felt guilty? it wasn't abandonment, not until you disappeared. I wish I could get past this but I've always had trust issues with the men in my life staying in my life. I'm sorry I didnt want you to have to fall victim to that too.
If anyone has advice about trying to trust someone again...
I'd really love to hear it.
And I always fear I'm doing the wrong thing. And sometimes fear turns to panic and I end up messing things up that were prolly fine before I started freaking out.
I realize that you don't always find time. And I realize the things I say can be hurtful. bottom line I still don't trust you. I asked you not to leave the first time, I told you how scared I was...made myself completely vulnerable, and somehow you still completely tore me apart. And for what? because you felt guilty? it wasn't abandonment, not until you disappeared. I wish I could get past this but I've always had trust issues with the men in my life staying in my life. I'm sorry I didnt want you to have to fall victim to that too.
If anyone has advice about trying to trust someone again...
I'd really love to hear it.