Jesus christ, im alone again.

[cheerylipgloss]

I havent done anything today, just sit in my room
on my bed, drinking green tea
when i eat i feel fat
i feel like a baloon about to exploadddd
when i eat i feel ugly i dont know why /;
Luis is going to ask this girl to be his girlfriend soon, he said she makes him almost as happy as i did when we went out
that made me kind of sad, which is probablly why i havent taken a shower or left my room much today.
i cant be upset, because iv had many boyfriends since we broke up last summer
but none of them have "almost made me as happy as he did when we went out"
i guess thats what made me sad.
iv been listening to music a lot today but not a wide range.
mostly dashnoard conffesional, brand new, and the early november
not much of a selection but iv been enjoying it.

"Well jesus christ i'm alone again
so what did you do those three days you were dead?
cause this problems gonna last more than the weekend

well jesus christ i'm not scared to die,
I'm a little bit scared of what comes after
do i get a gold chariot?
do i float through the celing?

yeah we all got wooden nails
and we sleep inside of this machine.

-brand new.