Kendall's escort is Bubba, and I'm excited because he is a really cool person!
So tired.
I need a day to myself. to just sit in pajama's all day and sleep, lounge around, get up only to eat and pee.
School today was fine. Tie day. Didn't see tricia for a lot of it, missed ya.
6th period Paul-Michael came by to give me the guest pass stuff. Too bad I still need a photocopy of his I.D. Dang, guest pass stuff is a pain in the arse.
Teran introduced herself to him. Grrr...Marie and I were not so pleased. Go away...ummm...don't you have a boyfriend? ya, I thought so.
Practice. Made the mistake of wearing pants. Hot and sweaty. supposed to go to 14 competitions this year. ya right.
Home now, need to still study for APES. Have a zillion other things to do before I leave for school in the morning. 1.)pants from dad for opposite sex day tomorrow, 2.) money from mom for nails for homecoming tomorrow afterschool, 3.) get gas on way to school, 4.) get football secret pal something tomorrow morning.
Bad mood in the shower tonight. It just hit me. Crying like a baby. I hate feeling lonely, neglected, not wanted. Makes me want to lock myself in my room and never come out just to see if people would miss me, and when I actually did come out and realize they never did, makes me want to cry all over again. I long to belong, i guess is the eaiest way to say it. I want people to want to hang out with me, not vice versa. I want someone to call and say "Hey, what are you up to?" Maybe I just want a boy. I dunno...I just want attention I think is what it comes down to. So give me some.
Teran just called my cell phone. I didn't answer it, because it was all the way up in my room. So, I shut it off. She probably wanted a ride somewhere or something. I'm sick of wasting gas on her, I'm not her babysitter.
Dang, be glad if you're in my good graces tonight, because I'm in a really bad mood. I should go to sleep now.
Tricia, don't have energy for the notebook tonight. I'm sorry I'm such a slacker. Forgive me?
Okay, glass of milk, then bed.
Peace out.
I need a day to myself. to just sit in pajama's all day and sleep, lounge around, get up only to eat and pee.
School today was fine. Tie day. Didn't see tricia for a lot of it, missed ya.
6th period Paul-Michael came by to give me the guest pass stuff. Too bad I still need a photocopy of his I.D. Dang, guest pass stuff is a pain in the arse.
Teran introduced herself to him. Grrr...Marie and I were not so pleased. Go away...ummm...don't you have a boyfriend? ya, I thought so.
Practice. Made the mistake of wearing pants. Hot and sweaty. supposed to go to 14 competitions this year. ya right.
Home now, need to still study for APES. Have a zillion other things to do before I leave for school in the morning. 1.)pants from dad for opposite sex day tomorrow, 2.) money from mom for nails for homecoming tomorrow afterschool, 3.) get gas on way to school, 4.) get football secret pal something tomorrow morning.
Bad mood in the shower tonight. It just hit me. Crying like a baby. I hate feeling lonely, neglected, not wanted. Makes me want to lock myself in my room and never come out just to see if people would miss me, and when I actually did come out and realize they never did, makes me want to cry all over again. I long to belong, i guess is the eaiest way to say it. I want people to want to hang out with me, not vice versa. I want someone to call and say "Hey, what are you up to?" Maybe I just want a boy. I dunno...I just want attention I think is what it comes down to. So give me some.
Teran just called my cell phone. I didn't answer it, because it was all the way up in my room. So, I shut it off. She probably wanted a ride somewhere or something. I'm sick of wasting gas on her, I'm not her babysitter.
Dang, be glad if you're in my good graces tonight, because I'm in a really bad mood. I should go to sleep now.
Tricia, don't have energy for the notebook tonight. I'm sorry I'm such a slacker. Forgive me?
Okay, glass of milk, then bed.
Peace out.