Home, puppies, and a baby seal
It's my first rainy night in my newish place. After having spent the past few weeks driving to Chapel Hill usually four nights a week, I'm taking a few days to just come home and relax alone, not drinking and not doing anything but working, watching movies, and reading.
It feels good; I spend a lot of time worrying about other people and haven't given myself enough space to deal with my own issues in a very long time. My own issues aren't usually as serious as other people's because most of them are only in my own head, but since I don't feel like I can be of any real use to anyone right now, as much as I'd like to be, I may as well stay home alone and let my brow unfurrow a little.
In dealing with the feeling that everything in my life, in my loved ones' lives, and in the world is circling the drain, I'm trying to resort to the most basic short-term solutions, things I did when I felt down and out and miserably angsty as a young teen.
Things like:
Making lists of things that make me smile
Writing letters to people that I don't intend to send
Making mixed CD's of music that I've just discovered I love
Attempting to write poetry (I never finish, but I don't beat myself up about it)
That reminds me that I haven't had any music that was new to me in a while. If anyone has any band or song suggestions, please let me know and I'll give it a whirl.
Here are some pictures of puppies.
And a seal:
It feels good; I spend a lot of time worrying about other people and haven't given myself enough space to deal with my own issues in a very long time. My own issues aren't usually as serious as other people's because most of them are only in my own head, but since I don't feel like I can be of any real use to anyone right now, as much as I'd like to be, I may as well stay home alone and let my brow unfurrow a little.
In dealing with the feeling that everything in my life, in my loved ones' lives, and in the world is circling the drain, I'm trying to resort to the most basic short-term solutions, things I did when I felt down and out and miserably angsty as a young teen.
Things like:
Making lists of things that make me smile
Writing letters to people that I don't intend to send
Making mixed CD's of music that I've just discovered I love
Attempting to write poetry (I never finish, but I don't beat myself up about it)
That reminds me that I haven't had any music that was new to me in a while. If anyone has any band or song suggestions, please let me know and I'll give it a whirl.
Here are some pictures of puppies.
And a seal: