It's your life
Some people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, they serve some purpose, to teach you a lesson, or help you figure out who you are or who you want to become.
You never know who these people may be, your roommate, neighbor, professor, long lost friend, lover, or even a complete stranger who when you lock eyes with them you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some very profound way.
And sometimes things might happen to you and at the moment they may seam horriable, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would never have realized your potential, strength, will power or heart.
Everything happens for a reason, nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck or bad luck, illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occure to test the limits of your soul. With out these small tests, if they be events, illness or relationships, life would be a smoothly paved straight, flat road to nowhere. Safe and Comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.
The people you meet who affect your life and successes and down falls you experience create who you are and even bad experiences can be learned from. In fact they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts you, betrays you or even breaks your heart, forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to who you open your heart to. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes to things you would have never seen or felt with out them.
Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from it everything you possibly can, for you may neverbe able to experience it again. Talk to people you have never talked to before and actually listen; let your self fall in love; break free and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell your self you are a great individual and believe in your self, for if you don't believe in your self, no one else will believe in you either. You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life and then go out and live it!
so tomorrow is christmas
and i'm excited.
kind of.
its sad to think back to when you are little and you can't fall asleep because you are so excited and you try to listen for footsteps on the roof and try to stand up to see santa and you put a little plate of milk and cookies out and think that santa and the reindeers really ate it. and in the morning you wake up and you are so excited because everything seems magical.
i miss being young.
but today i organized everything and it felt really good
and then i saw lina when i was driving :)
and last night and played a game of checkers with my dad.
but it made me sad because i never do that.
but i finished all my presents and it took me awhile.
but i finally did it.
so i was pretty happy about that.
and i was thinking about a lot last night
and my new years resolutions
and how i really want to carry throught with them
but that truth is that probably won't happen.
BUT MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE
AND I LOVE YOU
p.s. hey cze sit up straight