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How do you know things are ment to be or it jsut being what you want? How do you know if people are using you just to have the comfort of having you around?
I have no idea and lately I've really been wondering that. Is it bad that their friends seem to be more important then you. That they would rather hang out with them then you. Do they realize how much it suck to jsut hang out with them when they are high or drunk? Do they ever realize that you don't like them smoking pot? Probablly none of the above and it jsut causes problems if you bring any thing up. I need some friends to hang out with and not rely on one person to always hang out becasue obviously they don't usually want to hang out with you. Some I'm making a friends wanted application. If only it was that easy. And then you tell them that they are your only friend and they jsut say that you dont' try to make new friend. But all you want to say back is I blew off all of my friends to hang out with you and now they never want to hang out with me. But even the little comments they don't understand. Part of me in away wants to say its done. But I don't know if I ever can. In away it seems like a put in all the effort. I'm jsut lonley and never have any one to hang out with. Ahhhhh every thing sucks and they never realize it they are to busy with who you call there boy friend. I guess your jsut second on there list. Can you fall more in love with some ones family then with them and be more worried about what they would think then what they would think. Because at times it feels that way. once again I get off work early and look forward to hanging out with them and they are with there "boyfriend" I don't wnat this to be how it always is and some times I wonder if this it what it has come to. Has it? I hate the way you get when you drunk/high I hate that voice that you make that I can never understand I hate how you jsut leave things around. I hate how you will change your story depending on who your talking to I hate the fact that you smoke so much lately and its jsut going to get worse when you more in with them..... I know if I were to tell you this it will casue problems. I hate how when ever I don't know some thing you jsut make me feel stupid and yet I tell you that and all you say is that i'm sorry I won't say what I'm thinking. Is it bad that things moved along this fast.
Who knows the end of my rant of always being left by there sleves.
I have no idea and lately I've really been wondering that. Is it bad that their friends seem to be more important then you. That they would rather hang out with them then you. Do they realize how much it suck to jsut hang out with them when they are high or drunk? Do they ever realize that you don't like them smoking pot? Probablly none of the above and it jsut causes problems if you bring any thing up. I need some friends to hang out with and not rely on one person to always hang out becasue obviously they don't usually want to hang out with you. Some I'm making a friends wanted application. If only it was that easy. And then you tell them that they are your only friend and they jsut say that you dont' try to make new friend. But all you want to say back is I blew off all of my friends to hang out with you and now they never want to hang out with me. But even the little comments they don't understand. Part of me in away wants to say its done. But I don't know if I ever can. In away it seems like a put in all the effort. I'm jsut lonley and never have any one to hang out with. Ahhhhh every thing sucks and they never realize it they are to busy with who you call there boy friend. I guess your jsut second on there list. Can you fall more in love with some ones family then with them and be more worried about what they would think then what they would think. Because at times it feels that way. once again I get off work early and look forward to hanging out with them and they are with there "boyfriend" I don't wnat this to be how it always is and some times I wonder if this it what it has come to. Has it? I hate the way you get when you drunk/high I hate that voice that you make that I can never understand I hate how you jsut leave things around. I hate how you will change your story depending on who your talking to I hate the fact that you smoke so much lately and its jsut going to get worse when you more in with them..... I know if I were to tell you this it will casue problems. I hate how when ever I don't know some thing you jsut make me feel stupid and yet I tell you that and all you say is that i'm sorry I won't say what I'm thinking. Is it bad that things moved along this fast.
Who knows the end of my rant of always being left by there sleves.