fuck
i don't understand how this happens. i must have done something so wrong and aweful and now i'm just being punished hardcore. sometimes i wish i wasn't a girl. sometimes i wish i didn't have this spectrume of emotions that makes me so lost and confused. this is shit. i wish it would end. i wish i wasn't so upset. i wish i wasn't emo. i wish life would stop being silly and go back to being beautiful. all i do is wish. that's all i can do these days. i'd go out and try to make 'dreams come true' but i've been down that road this week, and it wasn't too pretty. fuck. that's pretty much all i have to say right now. fuck. it's the one word that describes everything. i haven't given up yet... but i probably will when i wake up.