oh the romance...

[cheere_darlin]

i feel numb deep inside. it's too quiet to think and too loud to fall asleep. stars blink in and out, one day they'll all fall down on us. my walls are blank, my pictures are lost in a box somewhere across the nation. i'm felling lost today. the fall is here but summer won't end. i'm itching all over to experience the next stage of life, but i refuse to let go of simple childhood pleasures. promises are always broken but they're always promised to be fulfilled. my heart beats off rhythm and they doctors say i'll be ok in a week. weeks go by and i can't remember what i came here for. i pass people in the street, all of them disconnected from our shared universe. i pretend songs were written about me, when it is clear they were written for people like me.

we function on the idea of love and hate. we are constantly thinking of whom we'd like to be with, what we'd love to do. love drives us to become who we are. love will bring us together and tear us apart. love will make us better and bring out the worst in us. it is love we blame and love we claim. it is the romance we have lost, the romance for which we hunt, the romance we wish to have. it is romance and love we diluted, destroyed, demolished. now we are all lost in our wold full of hate and war. humanity shattered and teenage lovers experiencing an action, empty of emotions, care, or thought.

oh the romance, where have you gone?