nothing is clear

[cheere_darlin]

i got it all wrong. i thought it i had it all down with a pen and paper, but i was wrong. i spent this weekend having a great time and realizing that i need to change becase i'm changing and it's ok for me to feel different now. i'm never going to stop growing up and i'm never going to stop changing. the more i think about it, the more i feel silly for thinking the way i did before, but all is well. bleh bleh.... hmmmm i love this complex, confusing, tragic, beautiful life. there is something magical about every moment, a sad or happy one, and i wouldn't change it. at least i dont' think i would. at this moment of the day, all i know is that i'm ready to start something new and just have fun with and stop worrying about things that make me over analyze life way too much.

... this feeling inside is new, but i'm no different ...

i love my friends.