Its me, I'm here all the time- I won't go away
So, its been rough lately. My New Year's resolution was to learn to like myself more...and, infact-if possible, I actually like myself less than before. I just don't know what to do anymore.
Mostly today I just felt soo stupid. I make myself feel this way from all these little things. But I can't change my mind. I get it in my head, and try and make it leave my head- and I can't. Its stuck. And I get this voice that tells me I'm right- and to not change my mind, because everyone is smarter than me. And why should today be any different from any other day. i just have different problems- and the same arguments go on with every problem of mine. I'm trying to take it day by day. Thats all I can ask of myself.
And I feel better now. Even after cheerleading. We have been working sooo hard.(my group- and everyone). But my group has to work the hardest because we are the only one without a twist AND we have to do a right lib because noone else wanted to try it(which still kind of ticks me off becasue we still have to work on our twist..but does anyone else care-- noooo) Owell. I know we can do it:) I love my group. And we're going to be awesome- the best:-P. So thats good.
And I just had some clam strips and scallops for dinner. MMmmm:)
Andd.. I have the best friend. I love him, he makes me feel special, and he listens to me, and makes me realize that I am not as horribile as I make myself out to be. I don't know what I'd do without him.. thank you! And I promise, this weekend, we're getting TRASHED and playing video games! hahaha muahh love you zackary:)
i will update later
Mostly today I just felt soo stupid. I make myself feel this way from all these little things. But I can't change my mind. I get it in my head, and try and make it leave my head- and I can't. Its stuck. And I get this voice that tells me I'm right- and to not change my mind, because everyone is smarter than me. And why should today be any different from any other day. i just have different problems- and the same arguments go on with every problem of mine. I'm trying to take it day by day. Thats all I can ask of myself.
And I feel better now. Even after cheerleading. We have been working sooo hard.(my group- and everyone). But my group has to work the hardest because we are the only one without a twist AND we have to do a right lib because noone else wanted to try it(which still kind of ticks me off becasue we still have to work on our twist..but does anyone else care-- noooo) Owell. I know we can do it:) I love my group. And we're going to be awesome- the best:-P. So thats good.
And I just had some clam strips and scallops for dinner. MMmmm:)
Andd.. I have the best friend. I love him, he makes me feel special, and he listens to me, and makes me realize that I am not as horribile as I make myself out to be. I don't know what I'd do without him.. thank you! And I promise, this weekend, we're getting TRASHED and playing video games! hahaha muahh love you zackary:)
i will update later