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Sometimes it's just so easy to hate life. Mainly when things are going bad. and right now it just feels like everything is rockbottom in the life of a 17 year old. lol it sounds crazy, but i'm sure it could be worst. i really dont know how i feel. as of now, i guess i'm focusing on college apps, but i'm also thinking that everything else in life seems so stupid right now. that maybe it is time to just get outta high school nd move on. it is the right time to think about the future. its just the strenuous energy-killing process of getting there. and i'm attempting to say this in the most UNemo, UNcomplaining way possible.
i've also come to realize that its so weird how the media directs our life in every way possible. i mean the thigsn we feel are things we've seen in movies or music. its funny how that all works out. and sometiems we choose to feel that way because we like it. or we want to feel that way, when in fact nothing ever feels like that. its like that split second feeling of euphoria u get after u take some medication or are just in a good mood. but it never stays liek it does when you hear a cute song or watch a touching movie. life feels complete cause ur so in it, but then once its over, that feeling is gone because u know that its not really there. well i guess i could say thats i how feel.
ergh, i guess what i'm really trying to say is that eveyrthing is just pissing me off right now.
what a mess!
i've also come to realize that its so weird how the media directs our life in every way possible. i mean the thigsn we feel are things we've seen in movies or music. its funny how that all works out. and sometiems we choose to feel that way because we like it. or we want to feel that way, when in fact nothing ever feels like that. its like that split second feeling of euphoria u get after u take some medication or are just in a good mood. but it never stays liek it does when you hear a cute song or watch a touching movie. life feels complete cause ur so in it, but then once its over, that feeling is gone because u know that its not really there. well i guess i could say thats i how feel.
ergh, i guess what i'm really trying to say is that eveyrthing is just pissing me off right now.
what a mess!