Thinking.

[cheekybabe]

Wow. I'm... overwhelmed. Before I graduated, I was just WAITING to not have concerts and homework and practices, but now it seems like I'm always thinking and doing something and in four different directions. Yesterday I turned 18, got my "under 21" license, drove after 9 with 3 friends, and went to my first club. I feel like I'm just at the beginning of so much and at the beginning of learning and experiencing this completely different lifestyle which, up to now, I have been completely clueless about. People have said that high school was their time to figure out who they are, but for me, I figured out what kind of person I want to be, and college will hopefully be the time I can make that happen. I feel like for the past four years, I've had stepping stones laid out in front of me and there were always signs with huge arrows saying "go here". Already I feel like, besides my friends, family, and boyfriend... there are no stepping stones and I'm starting to make my own signs with my own arrows. I might not be making the right choices and saying the right things, but right now I'm just going with what I have and with the fact that everyday I learn something new, even if it's just something about food from a customer at Ingles. I'll just take big leaps and hope I land somewhere nice.

I got so many nice things for my birthday! Thank you for everyone who gave me gifts and took the time to be with me or just say 'happy birthday' yesterday. I love you guys! :)

I'm off tomorrow, but I have to go to the bank and deposit my birthday money and return my video camera case that's too small. The rest of the time I'll be at home or out with Branden. A week til we leave!! :)

There's paper promises and alibis
There is certainly uncertainty in all our eyes
But as long as you are here
I'll be alright
As we roll on tonight...