"I didn't know what was happening..."
lol the subject is something that michael said on saturday morning, he's so cute...i was still sleeping and obviousely i was making noises b/c i was dreamin'. Like i kept twitching and groaning lol and he goes "are you okay?!?!" and i'm like "huh yeah why?" and he goes "you was making all these noises and i didn't know what was happening" lol it was so adorable bc he was speaking in his cute little baby voice..he says i turn him into putty, and make him go like a lil school girl lol even though he's a guy. He's pretty great, very generous and gentle, i like how he's so caring, though he is so burtaly honest i don't like it sometimes...we was talking about staying at each others hosues and i was a bit iffy about it, i don't know, probably b/c its another step of commitment, and hes like 'oh so ya can lie here with me till hours of the morning but not say' and yeah we have been kinda gettin into stuff lol so yeah he had a go at me sort of....its confusing! anyways we takin it slower now, he's just so sexy though and when he kisses my neck.........okay i'lls top b4 it turns into a porno script! aside from all that he is nice, and he's willing to wait and all that stuff..im not ready for a boyfriend so we are just 'seeing each other' whatever that means, sucks tho, i like him lots!! but u kno i still love alex. Some people think its a dog act to be with soem1 but still have feelings for another...but really, there not in my situation, i think ill love alex forever. It will always be there, but im just going to live my life as normal until it is physically possible for us to see one another, but im not depending on that, it will be YEARS until that day comes, so maybe i'll fall deeply inlove with mick i dunno, maybe i wont. I'm just trying to focus on my happiness. It's weird living for myself and not him anymore......