I'm 18
The big 18, i don't feel it...today is a special day, i'm nearly, well, an adult. The terrible part is that, well my heart is broken too, We never broke up, but last night, or today you could call it, we did. Alex has found somebody, and it was the worst timing ever (hence my birthday today) but i forced it out of him. And, i'm going to get through this..because, Now we really are 'free'..Now we really are going to see what happens because he has taken that first step and met someone special, i want to be that someone, and i always will be, but now, time will tell what our future holds..I'll always love him. We have been best friends for over a year now and this won't stop it. If he is who he has been for the past year and a half we will still be as close as can be. I just need to well, get over him..It sucks being myb rithday and having to deal with thjis but it's part of life. And i'm still blessed to have him in my life. I thought he was my soul mate (call my stupid if yuou wish) and maybe he is..but now it's time to really get over him, i'm not sure if i will ever be over him completely, but that's not to say that i will not enjoy tonight, today is exactly the same as yesterday, but i'm 18 now. Andthat hope of Alex and I has gone..but i can't promise that hope will ever go completely...