please read - need advice
mick is so sweet and all, and being so nice and he doesnt expect anythin of me and he isnt just afta a root. He likes me alot and i like him too but im scared to commit, im scared im never gonna be able to say 'well lets go out' or ill say no if he eva asks me......and i kno eventually he'll want to be bf/gf..i trust him n everything and we are do 'stuff' together, not sleepin together i dont wanna sleep wit any1 unless i love them but maybe thats changing, i like him alot n trust him, but being wit some1 else? scarey......i dont want to fall inlove and i dont want to depend bc i am scared of hurt. i don't really understand, n he's so patient, sometimes i feel like sayign i want a week to think about stuff tbut then i think no way its all okay., and it is okay but then i worry in a wfdew weeks time. I think im scared to meet his mates too..feel so intimitated..im a shy person and i can get really uncomofrtably shy and i hate that, n im 18m, he's 22...all his mates guy/girls are olda n im dreaidng meeting them, most ppl dont care so much,,,or arnt as shy and put on a brave face but im kinda shittinb ricks about it ay..i kno it shudnt matter wat his mates think but it does at the end of the day. it does to me and im sure itd ofend him if hey told him i was a bitch. they might think ima snob coz i want be extra chatty, n i think abt it too much so it gets worse.................i wanna meet him a few at a time b4 i group thing..he asked me to da pub and i said i might have to work, i hate excuses and he prib knows its an excuse, but if he's willing to udnerstand me being nervous maybe he wont mind, 4 some reason im afraid hell get mad, he dun really get mad ever but its a fear, stupid, wat do i do? shud i just meet them or say to him id rather meet em slowly. does any1 kno wat i mean, u meet ppl n ur so uncomfy about it all that u dont talk and u feel sos tupid, ur telling urself to say something screaming in ya head but ya cant n then they think ur a nuff
i am a nuff tho, i shudnt worry.
im just gonna be straight honest wit him like he said to do
its coz im scared, its like im willing to get into a fight wit him to avoid the whole sub, i needa just get my arse in order ay.
wish me luck...........
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i am a nuff tho, i shudnt worry.
im just gonna be straight honest wit him like he said to do
its coz im scared, its like im willing to get into a fight wit him to avoid the whole sub, i needa just get my arse in order ay.
wish me luck...........
x