Taking it slow? Treating me mean? OR plain old taking the piss?
So, theres my catch up. Apoligies for the last post, I've just read it and seen that I did woffle a bit but needed to vent. hey ho, it's my diary and thats what people do right?
So I went off to work today on the Early (7-3) which killed me to get up. My first early morning, arghhhh, but yer,it was okay I guess. I had my first complaint put in about me by a patients mum today so didnt feel top notch when I finished work. It pisses me off the fact that I go to uni for years, work as a Nurse and look after people who are sick and the thanks I get is assholes putting complaints in about me because Ive said something thats no doubt TRUE but they don't like it! I spent most of my shift explaining myself to the bed managers and Matron. Matron was sound and agreed with my side like so 1 nil!
Went to the sunbeds for 9 minutes after work. Needed a relaxing moment and a little warm snooze, lol. Mum told me that Mark called at 11am (when he knew I was on the E) and told mum to tell me he was going out for the day & he'd call me later. it's now nearly 7pm and he hasn't called. I feel like a crank...checking my phone, wondering where he is, what he's doing and is he plain old bored of me? I have called his house but as usualy, it's engadged as his sister has dial up tinternet which clogs up the line. I'm well pist. I purposly never made any plans for tonight so I could maybe meet up with Mark and see how he is, talk to him about Donna's behaviour which I discussed with her today & well, get my fix of his company from him cause I seem to be much happier these days.
The fact that he's not calling me and when he is, he knows Im not in...makes me wonder whether he is making a POINT of taking it slow? is he getting bored of me now? he has tendancys to be the biggest player in the UK so are his eyes wondering? they did in Lloyds when I was sat right with him! or is he just plain old taking the piss? I don't know. Just too much to think about and I feel like the piss is being taken or am I wrong in thinking this? he has pounded on at me that I'm not showing my feelings to him when I have to best of my ability and considering the time we'v been together, I honestly don't feel like I've done anything wrong apart from adore him and be crazy about him 100%
I don't know what to do...
I'm going to ring around my mates now and see who's going out cause one thing is for sure. I AM NOT sitting in AGAIN and waiting for him to call and me batter my own head.
It's all happens just before my birthday...without fail! I've had issues with other friends which I shan't delve into cause I'l be here forever, though I have highlighted my main concerns.
So,it's my Birthday on Friday. I'll be 25! :o not sure what Im doing yet. Mark told me on Thursday night that he's working.....great! My folks are off to Prague 2morrow for four days...a litle mini break for my dad off my mum, bless. I'm happy about having the house to myself and nobody waking me up on my days off....bliss.
So I went off to work today on the Early (7-3) which killed me to get up. My first early morning, arghhhh, but yer,it was okay I guess. I had my first complaint put in about me by a patients mum today so didnt feel top notch when I finished work. It pisses me off the fact that I go to uni for years, work as a Nurse and look after people who are sick and the thanks I get is assholes putting complaints in about me because Ive said something thats no doubt TRUE but they don't like it! I spent most of my shift explaining myself to the bed managers and Matron. Matron was sound and agreed with my side like so 1 nil!
Went to the sunbeds for 9 minutes after work. Needed a relaxing moment and a little warm snooze, lol. Mum told me that Mark called at 11am (when he knew I was on the E) and told mum to tell me he was going out for the day & he'd call me later. it's now nearly 7pm and he hasn't called. I feel like a crank...checking my phone, wondering where he is, what he's doing and is he plain old bored of me? I have called his house but as usualy, it's engadged as his sister has dial up tinternet which clogs up the line. I'm well pist. I purposly never made any plans for tonight so I could maybe meet up with Mark and see how he is, talk to him about Donna's behaviour which I discussed with her today & well, get my fix of his company from him cause I seem to be much happier these days.
The fact that he's not calling me and when he is, he knows Im not in...makes me wonder whether he is making a POINT of taking it slow? is he getting bored of me now? he has tendancys to be the biggest player in the UK so are his eyes wondering? they did in Lloyds when I was sat right with him! or is he just plain old taking the piss? I don't know. Just too much to think about and I feel like the piss is being taken or am I wrong in thinking this? he has pounded on at me that I'm not showing my feelings to him when I have to best of my ability and considering the time we'v been together, I honestly don't feel like I've done anything wrong apart from adore him and be crazy about him 100%
I don't know what to do...
I'm going to ring around my mates now and see who's going out cause one thing is for sure. I AM NOT sitting in AGAIN and waiting for him to call and me batter my own head.
It's all happens just before my birthday...without fail! I've had issues with other friends which I shan't delve into cause I'l be here forever, though I have highlighted my main concerns.
So,it's my Birthday on Friday. I'll be 25! :o not sure what Im doing yet. Mark told me on Thursday night that he's working.....great! My folks are off to Prague 2morrow for four days...a litle mini break for my dad off my mum, bless. I'm happy about having the house to myself and nobody waking me up on my days off....bliss.