Long long absence...
Hey,
Yes it has been a while, since I officially posted. Well, my family did leave to Puerto Rico, and I stood behind, desperately trying to cast out on my own, and live my own life. Well, I had a job at Burger King before they left. I was supposed to leave for the army the 23rd, of sept. But unfortunately, they lost my physical papers, and it took them 3 months to schedule me for one. Thats another story though, backtracking a little, I met this woman at work. I couldn't lay my eyes off her since the day she started working, which was 1 day after yours truely. Anyhow I noticed I didn't quite catch her eye, so I never made a move, I dont deal with rejection well, so I didn't catch any vibe from her, so I didn't bother talking to her. But a co-worker(yet another piece of trash in this world) noticed I had an eye for this woman, and encouraged me to talk to her. So I gave it a shot, and we made good conversation. Well a week before I was to leave in the Army, I invited her to a going away get together. Of which we had alcohol and such. She had never been drunk, so I stood sober to watch over her and take care of her. Im glad she got to enjoy herself, I had a better time being sober and watching her have a good time, than being drunk myself. But anyhow, we began to like each other, and well one day I asked her if she wanted to be with me, and if she trusted me while I was away. And after a little joking around, we were together. Things were great, I really liked her and she really liked me. She was so beautiful, and so nice, and caring and everything I ever wanted. And to top it off, her family liked me. I eventually started staying at her house, our relationship had alot of ups and downs. Like any relationship, we had our breakups and makeups. We progressed alot, the things we argued over were changing, because we were slowly working out the kinks. But none the less, I stuck it out, If you kept up with my journal, you know I run fast when I find something in a girl I dont like, but this one was different, and I knew if I stuck it out, things would be better. So comes december, and we broke up again, Im leaving for Puerto Rico, to spend the holidays with my family and I was to return when they were over. Well midway thru, My beautiful woman tells me she wants to be together again, she had told me she had changed, and that things would be different, and I was so happy, I was thrilled, because I knew and felt this time it was true, so happy I cut my visit with my family short, to return to my Muse(for those of you who dont know what this is) ----> My inspirational Goddess. And things were great, but about 4 days in we struck another problem, he need to have other men for friends, and I felt that that wasn't fair to me, when the majority of her friends are other men, thats very uncomfortable, when your cuddling with your loved one, and she hops up and goes away to have a conversation with another man. Maybe I am asking to much, but I find that wrong. I could be wrong, but I feel in my heart Im not. Anyways, that led to more fighting, and from there other things arose, and finally today, she leaves me. And I will always love her, and I know she loves me. And whether or not she will be with me again, we will always love each other. Through time, you learn your mistakes, when you sit back and observe everything, you can evaluate everything you've done, and didn't do. And everything happens for a purpose. People are punished for a reason, and reward for one also. I just hope that things go better for me, and I hope she can be happy, with me, or without. I am left 2 decisions now, and I can either sink or swim. If I can't make it here, I am giving up and moving to Puerto Rico, I've got some fight left, but is it enough?
P.S. I know your reading this Christina, and I am not trying to make you feel bad, I've always written what was on my mind. You can leave a reply if u want, I love you.
§~CheeTheSilent~§
Yes it has been a while, since I officially posted. Well, my family did leave to Puerto Rico, and I stood behind, desperately trying to cast out on my own, and live my own life. Well, I had a job at Burger King before they left. I was supposed to leave for the army the 23rd, of sept. But unfortunately, they lost my physical papers, and it took them 3 months to schedule me for one. Thats another story though, backtracking a little, I met this woman at work. I couldn't lay my eyes off her since the day she started working, which was 1 day after yours truely. Anyhow I noticed I didn't quite catch her eye, so I never made a move, I dont deal with rejection well, so I didn't catch any vibe from her, so I didn't bother talking to her. But a co-worker(yet another piece of trash in this world) noticed I had an eye for this woman, and encouraged me to talk to her. So I gave it a shot, and we made good conversation. Well a week before I was to leave in the Army, I invited her to a going away get together. Of which we had alcohol and such. She had never been drunk, so I stood sober to watch over her and take care of her. Im glad she got to enjoy herself, I had a better time being sober and watching her have a good time, than being drunk myself. But anyhow, we began to like each other, and well one day I asked her if she wanted to be with me, and if she trusted me while I was away. And after a little joking around, we were together. Things were great, I really liked her and she really liked me. She was so beautiful, and so nice, and caring and everything I ever wanted. And to top it off, her family liked me. I eventually started staying at her house, our relationship had alot of ups and downs. Like any relationship, we had our breakups and makeups. We progressed alot, the things we argued over were changing, because we were slowly working out the kinks. But none the less, I stuck it out, If you kept up with my journal, you know I run fast when I find something in a girl I dont like, but this one was different, and I knew if I stuck it out, things would be better. So comes december, and we broke up again, Im leaving for Puerto Rico, to spend the holidays with my family and I was to return when they were over. Well midway thru, My beautiful woman tells me she wants to be together again, she had told me she had changed, and that things would be different, and I was so happy, I was thrilled, because I knew and felt this time it was true, so happy I cut my visit with my family short, to return to my Muse(for those of you who dont know what this is) ----> My inspirational Goddess. And things were great, but about 4 days in we struck another problem, he need to have other men for friends, and I felt that that wasn't fair to me, when the majority of her friends are other men, thats very uncomfortable, when your cuddling with your loved one, and she hops up and goes away to have a conversation with another man. Maybe I am asking to much, but I find that wrong. I could be wrong, but I feel in my heart Im not. Anyways, that led to more fighting, and from there other things arose, and finally today, she leaves me. And I will always love her, and I know she loves me. And whether or not she will be with me again, we will always love each other. Through time, you learn your mistakes, when you sit back and observe everything, you can evaluate everything you've done, and didn't do. And everything happens for a purpose. People are punished for a reason, and reward for one also. I just hope that things go better for me, and I hope she can be happy, with me, or without. I am left 2 decisions now, and I can either sink or swim. If I can't make it here, I am giving up and moving to Puerto Rico, I've got some fight left, but is it enough?
P.S. I know your reading this Christina, and I am not trying to make you feel bad, I've always written what was on my mind. You can leave a reply if u want, I love you.
§~CheeTheSilent~§