People are strange when youre a stranger, faces look ugly when you're alone.
I'm on the toilet right now. Laptops are awesome. Zoey's laying down at my feet 'cause I can't leave her alone by herself 'cause I'll lose her 'cause I'm an idiot.
So lately I feel like work is everything and I don't do much of anything else. I do stuff, but not as much as I wish I did.
Also, I've noticed that a LOT of things have changed. I don't mean just like.. here and there. I mean that honestly, I think a piece of EVERYTHING has changed in my life. Friends, people I love, work, school obviously has changed, how I feel about things, what I like, what I do, who I do it with, my attitude towards things, the way I look, the way I want to look, who I want to be.
Friends do new shit.
I love people in different ways, and the only ones that haven't changed are my family.
I switched jobs and the people are so different.
School seems like it's going to be so great, but at the same time I genuinely miss the Aggie and I'm sad that it's going to be hard to come down and help with Fall Show if I can at all.
I feel like I have changed the way I feel about a lot of things, including drugs, drinking, people, analyzing things, etc.
I like girls a lot more than I used to. I feel like that was almost a phase, but I still feel like I did about boys, just less.
I like to do a lot more and I'm not as introverted as I used to be.
I spend a lot less time with different people, rather than a lot of time with the same people. I haven't decided whether or not this is a good thing.
I feel like I have become somewhat more apathetic towards a lot of things. It has become my opinion that I can't help people nearly as much as I used to think I could. Then again, a lot more people came to talk to me back then. Not many people trust in me all that much anymore. I don't know if they should or not, but they just don't.
I like looking straighter, now. I miss my long hair, but I really like it short. I am more content with my body looks now. Maybe that's because i worked on it so much when I was younger, but I just feel like it doesn't matter that much anymore. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing, either.
And finally I've realized that it's useless to focus too much on who I WANT to be. I'm sure that it helps out in the near future, but I'm not so sure doing that helps you in the long run. I think that who you want to be is what you feel right now and I'm trying to follow that as best as I possibly can. That's not to say that I do things on a whim; I still try to think about the consequences of things, but I think I've gotten better at weighing the action and the consequences. Moderation is key. I think that that and to live life and learn while you go are two very true statements. I'm sure there are a lot more statements out there that I live by, but I think those are the most basic and meaningful.
Haha where I'm going with this I'm not sure.
Just updating anyone who cares.
Or maybe I'm just getting it out. It's nice to go back and read these years from when they were written.
So lately I feel like work is everything and I don't do much of anything else. I do stuff, but not as much as I wish I did.
Also, I've noticed that a LOT of things have changed. I don't mean just like.. here and there. I mean that honestly, I think a piece of EVERYTHING has changed in my life. Friends, people I love, work, school obviously has changed, how I feel about things, what I like, what I do, who I do it with, my attitude towards things, the way I look, the way I want to look, who I want to be.
Friends do new shit.
I love people in different ways, and the only ones that haven't changed are my family.
I switched jobs and the people are so different.
School seems like it's going to be so great, but at the same time I genuinely miss the Aggie and I'm sad that it's going to be hard to come down and help with Fall Show if I can at all.
I feel like I have changed the way I feel about a lot of things, including drugs, drinking, people, analyzing things, etc.
I like girls a lot more than I used to. I feel like that was almost a phase, but I still feel like I did about boys, just less.
I like to do a lot more and I'm not as introverted as I used to be.
I spend a lot less time with different people, rather than a lot of time with the same people. I haven't decided whether or not this is a good thing.
I feel like I have become somewhat more apathetic towards a lot of things. It has become my opinion that I can't help people nearly as much as I used to think I could. Then again, a lot more people came to talk to me back then. Not many people trust in me all that much anymore. I don't know if they should or not, but they just don't.
I like looking straighter, now. I miss my long hair, but I really like it short. I am more content with my body looks now. Maybe that's because i worked on it so much when I was younger, but I just feel like it doesn't matter that much anymore. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing, either.
And finally I've realized that it's useless to focus too much on who I WANT to be. I'm sure that it helps out in the near future, but I'm not so sure doing that helps you in the long run. I think that who you want to be is what you feel right now and I'm trying to follow that as best as I possibly can. That's not to say that I do things on a whim; I still try to think about the consequences of things, but I think I've gotten better at weighing the action and the consequences. Moderation is key. I think that that and to live life and learn while you go are two very true statements. I'm sure there are a lot more statements out there that I live by, but I think those are the most basic and meaningful.
Haha where I'm going with this I'm not sure.
Just updating anyone who cares.
Or maybe I'm just getting it out. It's nice to go back and read these years from when they were written.