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well...
tomorrow i leave for orlando.
i should have been there yesterday but some things got very messed up, but i guess ill take what i can get.
i hope i can learn some stuff. im actually interested in how this crazy thing ive been apart of for 11 years now actually is run. i hear its just the south zone thats a mess, so i may need to do something about that.
at school, i found out my schedual is still fucked. and i cant take comp 1 at spc. my reasoning for all the bull theyre putting me through is that i didnt accept my thing into eastlake. everything would have been so much easier if i had. i really regret it now. i could have done swim team, i could have had a science class, i could have been with my friends, i could have made new friends, it would just be much better. and now im starting to think about trying to get in next year. i dont know. jsut a thought.
my emotional/mental whatever hasnt been too very bad lately. im just kindof blocking everything out cause i too upset when i get to thinking about things. but the one thing i do know is that i miss matt very much and it may be a while before i see hime again since hes working again, and his parents dont seem to like him out too late, or at all during the week, and im not going to be here untill sunday, and its just all making me sad. so i try not to think about it too much. one of these days it wont have to be this bad.
politics are another thing ive been thinking about lately. ive been reading a lot and thinking a lot and im jsut very interested. i just wish i knew where to begin.
umm... today after religion i stayed and talked to mr wagner for a bit durning lunch. he seemed worried about me, which i guess makes sense, i havent been myself lately. not that im really ever myself at school, but he could really see things wernt going well. he told me some stuff that really made me feel better about myself adn he said hes gunna get some books for me to read. its nice when people you have no idea care about you go out of their way to make sure you know.
thats all for now.
<3
DC
tomorrow i leave for orlando.
i should have been there yesterday but some things got very messed up, but i guess ill take what i can get.
i hope i can learn some stuff. im actually interested in how this crazy thing ive been apart of for 11 years now actually is run. i hear its just the south zone thats a mess, so i may need to do something about that.
at school, i found out my schedual is still fucked. and i cant take comp 1 at spc. my reasoning for all the bull theyre putting me through is that i didnt accept my thing into eastlake. everything would have been so much easier if i had. i really regret it now. i could have done swim team, i could have had a science class, i could have been with my friends, i could have made new friends, it would just be much better. and now im starting to think about trying to get in next year. i dont know. jsut a thought.
my emotional/mental whatever hasnt been too very bad lately. im just kindof blocking everything out cause i too upset when i get to thinking about things. but the one thing i do know is that i miss matt very much and it may be a while before i see hime again since hes working again, and his parents dont seem to like him out too late, or at all during the week, and im not going to be here untill sunday, and its just all making me sad. so i try not to think about it too much. one of these days it wont have to be this bad.
politics are another thing ive been thinking about lately. ive been reading a lot and thinking a lot and im jsut very interested. i just wish i knew where to begin.
umm... today after religion i stayed and talked to mr wagner for a bit durning lunch. he seemed worried about me, which i guess makes sense, i havent been myself lately. not that im really ever myself at school, but he could really see things wernt going well. he told me some stuff that really made me feel better about myself adn he said hes gunna get some books for me to read. its nice when people you have no idea care about you go out of their way to make sure you know.
thats all for now.
<3
DC