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my life is out of my control.
my body is failing me.
i can tell it to exercise, to walk me from class to class and town to town
but i cant tell my heart to not skip
or my head to stop spinning
or my hand not to reach to my lips and slip in pills or food.
i cant tell my fingers not to reach towards my throat and pull food out
i cant control the the desire to not eat
i am tired of being strung out all the time
tired of being tired.
i want someone to understand