i closed my eyes touched my nose and slept.
i came to a sad realization today.
friends and family must go on the back burner if i want to reach my selfish superficial goals that will ultimatly kill me.
i was supposed to go with one of my friends to her homecoming tonight
i didnt want to go out to eat with everyone and drink calories via alochol.
so i said my new medicine made me sick.
then i bough a bag of candy corn and had like a third of it and puked.
not counting it as a binge and purge. just a purge.
but now i really do feel sick.
i slept for 2 hours, had some dinner with m family
now im under mountains of blankets talking to dustin.
he is trying to crack me like an egg.