i want to wash my hands in bleach
why am i suddenly acting like im fourteen again.
im waiting for my parents to go to sleep so i can sneak out and go run.
it is way past time for me to move out.
gi doctor is putting a tube in me sometime next week
getting xrays tomorrow morning.
first night in a while i havent been on drugs.
i cant stand what my weights done.
i can feel myself retaining water.
well kidneys you can fuck up later, its time to work now.
im heading to the big city tomorrow, im looking forward to the constant movement
not so much the big dinner were supposed to be having.
good thing my whole bodies fucked up so i can get out of it.