so i reposted, shoot me.
i hate having to care about what other people think. i wish that i could tell you everything, but i cant. my body is a ticking bomb ready to shoot all my thoughts out and plaster them on walls and tables. i dont know how much longer i can keep to myself.
you see, i have encountered a new addiction, one that i cant seem to shake no matter how much i want to. i think its because deep down, i know i DONT want to lose it. i like the temporary high that i get from long nights and abandoned freeways. i like those impromptu phone calls that lead to parks and empty houses. its the wait that erodes me from the inside out. i've come to realize that i am slowly losing pieces of me and filling those holes with something that deteriorates faster than i can repair it. i have found my own drug but i fear that i am no longer the only user. i wish there was a way to know, not that knowing would change the fact that my addiction is taking over. i dont think there is a gum to cure this. i dont think there is anything to cure this.
only a couple days left.... and i become who i was: an overworked, underpaid, overachiever who isnt given the respect deserved. welcome to adolescence.
you see, i have encountered a new addiction, one that i cant seem to shake no matter how much i want to. i think its because deep down, i know i DONT want to lose it. i like the temporary high that i get from long nights and abandoned freeways. i like those impromptu phone calls that lead to parks and empty houses. its the wait that erodes me from the inside out. i've come to realize that i am slowly losing pieces of me and filling those holes with something that deteriorates faster than i can repair it. i have found my own drug but i fear that i am no longer the only user. i wish there was a way to know, not that knowing would change the fact that my addiction is taking over. i dont think there is a gum to cure this. i dont think there is anything to cure this.
only a couple days left.... and i become who i was: an overworked, underpaid, overachiever who isnt given the respect deserved. welcome to adolescence.