open my eyes..=)
so i was sad, but after i read my last couple of journal entrys, all i can think is why would i let a stupid boy get in my head like that? why did i let myself bring him down to that level for a year? why do i still feel like i must have him even though all i know is once we are back toegther we will be incredibly miserable!
its been a week since the final breakup.
i dont feel sick when i wake up anymore and im starting to be more active i believe im getting over this really really really slowly.
i just know i dont think i will be boy crazy for quite sometime, now i see why some people turn gay after a relationship, and if hell is worse than that? then i better start praying. being ripped apart every single day is no fun. and im still being ripped in this moment, i think thats why im writting.
i want to say thank you to my friends and that i love them to death and thank you so so so much for being there for me during these hard times and thank you for taking me back again and again time after time and forgiving me. i love you all. and i cant believe im still writting in this.
Well, heres my goodbye letter,
pierce,
i wish you the best of luck. you are my best friend. always will be. even 20 years from now and we dont talk you will still be my best friend. we shared a lot and ive never been threw so much with someone. and im glad it was you that i got to go threw it with. you were very special to me, i have never hated you, i have always loved you and will continue to love you. I love your family too, i hope krystin's wedding is beautiful and i will miss her and pat very much! i will miss sam, kamerin, kelly, and kieren. i loved them like my own family!!! i will especially miss your parents. i loved your mom and dad, they were incredible parents. Pierce, im not just loosing you but im loosing everything else too, thats why this is so hard. But people move on, and i will move on eventually. I hope you have an incredible life and when you get famous i will be a proud owner of one of your cds. you are going to succeed so much in life! i know you are having a hard time with everything right now, but just you wait,things are going to be so easy for you!
You will always be on my mind and i cant and never will forget you. You were my first love. i was head over heels in love with you and im proud to say it! =)
I love you pierce,
Melissa
its been a week since the final breakup.
i dont feel sick when i wake up anymore and im starting to be more active i believe im getting over this really really really slowly.
i just know i dont think i will be boy crazy for quite sometime, now i see why some people turn gay after a relationship, and if hell is worse than that? then i better start praying. being ripped apart every single day is no fun. and im still being ripped in this moment, i think thats why im writting.
i want to say thank you to my friends and that i love them to death and thank you so so so much for being there for me during these hard times and thank you for taking me back again and again time after time and forgiving me. i love you all. and i cant believe im still writting in this.
Well, heres my goodbye letter,
pierce,
i wish you the best of luck. you are my best friend. always will be. even 20 years from now and we dont talk you will still be my best friend. we shared a lot and ive never been threw so much with someone. and im glad it was you that i got to go threw it with. you were very special to me, i have never hated you, i have always loved you and will continue to love you. I love your family too, i hope krystin's wedding is beautiful and i will miss her and pat very much! i will miss sam, kamerin, kelly, and kieren. i loved them like my own family!!! i will especially miss your parents. i loved your mom and dad, they were incredible parents. Pierce, im not just loosing you but im loosing everything else too, thats why this is so hard. But people move on, and i will move on eventually. I hope you have an incredible life and when you get famous i will be a proud owner of one of your cds. you are going to succeed so much in life! i know you are having a hard time with everything right now, but just you wait,things are going to be so easy for you!
You will always be on my mind and i cant and never will forget you. You were my first love. i was head over heels in love with you and im proud to say it! =)
I love you pierce,
Melissa