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Things have been weird lately.I hope they will be normal again.Although I'm not really sure what the normal is.I still have a bar left.Just one.I won't take it yet because just 1v isn't enough.I have bad pimples.I'm pissed off.I want to go nto the tanning bed because it will probably help dry them up says my mother.I look so disgusting.I hate pimples.Having pimples makes me want to starve myself.Because atleast if I can't be beautiful I can be skinny.I have to go to the mall today.I'm gonna drop off my ring to be sized and spend my giftcards at wetseal.My mom isn't buying me an earpiercing gun.It makes me sad.She says she doesn't want me to have anymore piercings.lol like not getting me a gun is gonna help that.I'll still pierce it I'll just have to do it with a safety pin instead.Tamra has been differentlately.It's really bugging me.Before hr mom said all this crap about me being bad and not hanging out with me she was different.Now all she does is whore around with older guys and use me as an excuse to where she is staying.I'm tired of her mom and tnya calling wondering where she is and I can't tell them.Especially because I know what she is doing and I don't think she should be doing it at all.Tamra keeps telling me she isn't having sex with them...but I think she is.I just know.It's weird but I think I can tell.I thinmk that's what all this weird craziness she's been rambling about on hwer lj has to do with.I think everyone agrees with me that they wish she would be herself again.Those guys aren't even that cute to me.I mean yeah they are in a band.but a lowrate band that'll never make anything of themselves.They seem like losers to me.I've barely met them though.I hear one doesn't eat meat or anything that comes from animals.That's just weird to me.Vegitarians are gay.And he also doesn't smoke or drink.That guy is a fucking square.I don't caqre how cool he is.Igf you don't drink,smoke or eat meat you are a square.Lastely I feel left out.Like everyone is out having fun buit me.I feel left out of lj conversations as well.I think everyone is in on something but me because I'm not cool enough.Which is true because I'm not cool enough.