I want to write something
And isn't that the worst feeling? You want to write, your fingers are itching for it, your brain is like, "ho hum, some creative endeavors, oh, yes, this pleases me," and then you take one look at the page you just pulled up and go, "...no."
It's TERRIBLE.
I have a deadline for the Jesterverse trilogy (December) and I should really get going because I'm on chapter 5 or something, and with my track record, it's gonna take me 11 months to just slog through the thing. But I look at the document and the last words on the page and I just have this overwhelming feeling of defeat. Because it's just. So. Shit. I should erase and start over, but if I did that, god knows where it would end. I might erase the entire trilogy and start from scratch, and no, that would be bad. I'm gonna do that in the rewrites anyway. But it is Just So Shit. Especially the last chapter, christ, I can't get those people to not act like mannequins. I give up.
Luckily I have other things to write! Except no, I don't, because most of those things don't have plot, or characters that make sense, or anything that could be put on paper, and just looking at them is making me want to kill myself. Or beat myself over the head with my laptop, you choose. It's so depressing, that not only is the Big Trilogy shit, but everything I have that I could write fills me with disgust. Maybe if I were in a better mood, but that's not gonna happen if I look at the first, second and third placers in the international Just So Shit competition.
Yeah, yeah, I'm whining, like this is news. I still hate that last chapter of Jesterverse with every fibre of my being. It's not even redeemable shit, it's just plain old shit.
Alright, fine, I've convinced myself. Scrap, start over, it's the only way to redemption. Here come the hedge clippers.
It's TERRIBLE.
I have a deadline for the Jesterverse trilogy (December) and I should really get going because I'm on chapter 5 or something, and with my track record, it's gonna take me 11 months to just slog through the thing. But I look at the document and the last words on the page and I just have this overwhelming feeling of defeat. Because it's just. So. Shit. I should erase and start over, but if I did that, god knows where it would end. I might erase the entire trilogy and start from scratch, and no, that would be bad. I'm gonna do that in the rewrites anyway. But it is Just So Shit. Especially the last chapter, christ, I can't get those people to not act like mannequins. I give up.
Luckily I have other things to write! Except no, I don't, because most of those things don't have plot, or characters that make sense, or anything that could be put on paper, and just looking at them is making me want to kill myself. Or beat myself over the head with my laptop, you choose. It's so depressing, that not only is the Big Trilogy shit, but everything I have that I could write fills me with disgust. Maybe if I were in a better mood, but that's not gonna happen if I look at the first, second and third placers in the international Just So Shit competition.
Yeah, yeah, I'm whining, like this is news. I still hate that last chapter of Jesterverse with every fibre of my being. It's not even redeemable shit, it's just plain old shit.
Alright, fine, I've convinced myself. Scrap, start over, it's the only way to redemption. Here come the hedge clippers.