my own mirror
Kurt posted a meaningful post, I felt I should as well, I have a story of my own to share....
So, most people know the nice, sweet innocent girl that I try to be most of the time and that is cool. I have had a darker side though, the other side of the coin so to speak and it was very tarnished.....
I gave my heart away in the past like peices of cake....I had so many crushes and one relationship that almost killed me.
I was 15 and I like this boy from church...I'll call him elf, for that was what he was to me. A dark elf that hurt me deeply. Elf was no one to so many and so much to me and I didn't even kiss him, but I wanted to marry him more than anything. Then...he got soo possessive that I got scared and tried to break off the relationship. Elf freaked out and became very cold and passive...I couldn't stand to even think about him and it made me not want to ever give my heart away again. I hated all boys sooo much and just brooded for about 6 months. I told guys I met that I wasn't interested and was hit on by guys who wanted a challenge or just plain liked me.
I went to this concert with some friends and I was meeting up with the gang in Albany and I walked through a door and into my future. I saw Kurt sitting on the couch drawing and my world went "wowowwwwww" I can't begin to describe how the light played around him. Not natural light, like the kinda light I see when God is trying to tell me something. So I brushed it off, being the feminist that I was and said a very romantic, "hey" lol, not at all romantic. I even told him I wasn't interested in a dating thing atm. he didn't really hit on me, but he was nice to me. I wasn't used to that at all. Just plain nice, not creepy or forceful
So I went to the concert and like always, Baruch was being dumb and elbowed me in the eye! I ran out of the mosh pit, almost blacked out, and ran into Kurt, really ran into him, no joke. So he asked me what was wrong and I said what happened and all he did was brush his hand across my check and once again those same lights around him and the world's spinning stopped. So, thats when it hit me...5 years ago, 7 now, I had this vision of being a missionary and a blond guy helping me spread the word...it was Kurt, but way older (60ish) I soon after realized the ties and wrote him a few times, just to see if he even wanted to be my friend. In jan. of last year I called him for the first time and he and I had both had a similar vision at the same time 7 years ago. It was crazy, I know, but God is crazy sometimes, keeps us on our toes.
So here I am, I forgave Elf and embraced Kurt and have never looked back. God has pulled me closer and Kurt and I closer to him as future helpers and guides. Without each other, we would be lost in darkness.
I love people now like i never did before, this is because I was broken by love. It taught me to live love to the best of my abilities
Thats my story, take it or leave it...it sounds a lot like Kurt's I know, not intended, this is my life
-Sarah
So, most people know the nice, sweet innocent girl that I try to be most of the time and that is cool. I have had a darker side though, the other side of the coin so to speak and it was very tarnished.....
I gave my heart away in the past like peices of cake....I had so many crushes and one relationship that almost killed me.
I was 15 and I like this boy from church...I'll call him elf, for that was what he was to me. A dark elf that hurt me deeply. Elf was no one to so many and so much to me and I didn't even kiss him, but I wanted to marry him more than anything. Then...he got soo possessive that I got scared and tried to break off the relationship. Elf freaked out and became very cold and passive...I couldn't stand to even think about him and it made me not want to ever give my heart away again. I hated all boys sooo much and just brooded for about 6 months. I told guys I met that I wasn't interested and was hit on by guys who wanted a challenge or just plain liked me.
I went to this concert with some friends and I was meeting up with the gang in Albany and I walked through a door and into my future. I saw Kurt sitting on the couch drawing and my world went "wowowwwwww" I can't begin to describe how the light played around him. Not natural light, like the kinda light I see when God is trying to tell me something. So I brushed it off, being the feminist that I was and said a very romantic, "hey" lol, not at all romantic. I even told him I wasn't interested in a dating thing atm. he didn't really hit on me, but he was nice to me. I wasn't used to that at all. Just plain nice, not creepy or forceful
So I went to the concert and like always, Baruch was being dumb and elbowed me in the eye! I ran out of the mosh pit, almost blacked out, and ran into Kurt, really ran into him, no joke. So he asked me what was wrong and I said what happened and all he did was brush his hand across my check and once again those same lights around him and the world's spinning stopped. So, thats when it hit me...5 years ago, 7 now, I had this vision of being a missionary and a blond guy helping me spread the word...it was Kurt, but way older (60ish) I soon after realized the ties and wrote him a few times, just to see if he even wanted to be my friend. In jan. of last year I called him for the first time and he and I had both had a similar vision at the same time 7 years ago. It was crazy, I know, but God is crazy sometimes, keeps us on our toes.
So here I am, I forgave Elf and embraced Kurt and have never looked back. God has pulled me closer and Kurt and I closer to him as future helpers and guides. Without each other, we would be lost in darkness.
I love people now like i never did before, this is because I was broken by love. It taught me to live love to the best of my abilities
Thats my story, take it or leave it...it sounds a lot like Kurt's I know, not intended, this is my life
-Sarah