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my cousin adam and his girlfriend jade left today :-(
it was so fun to hang out with them .... cus we talked about all the ppl in angola and stuff happening there and i miss everyone about home and everything so much... cape coral sucks ... i cant find a job or normal ppl or anything ... and emilee cant come here so i dont know when im going to go back ... its just retarded...
i have been thinking and i really want to just like do one million different drugs.... and drink like 500 gallons of alcohol ... i dont really know why i guess i just dont feel brave anymore ... like i just sit home or go to the beach ... i dont even feel like lauren anymore i think im going to change my name ... even when i look in the mirror i dont even reconize myself its like the weirdest feeling ever i dont even feel like a person and i always want to like cry ....
its so fucking weird... but the other night someone was in our house they like came in the sliding glass door and hid the left ... but i wasnt here so i dont know exactly what happened but now im like scared to like go to sleep
so my life is shitty and i want to like slam some heroin in my arm
it was so fun to hang out with them .... cus we talked about all the ppl in angola and stuff happening there and i miss everyone about home and everything so much... cape coral sucks ... i cant find a job or normal ppl or anything ... and emilee cant come here so i dont know when im going to go back ... its just retarded...
i have been thinking and i really want to just like do one million different drugs.... and drink like 500 gallons of alcohol ... i dont really know why i guess i just dont feel brave anymore ... like i just sit home or go to the beach ... i dont even feel like lauren anymore i think im going to change my name ... even when i look in the mirror i dont even reconize myself its like the weirdest feeling ever i dont even feel like a person and i always want to like cry ....
its so fucking weird... but the other night someone was in our house they like came in the sliding glass door and hid the left ... but i wasnt here so i dont know exactly what happened but now im like scared to like go to sleep
so my life is shitty and i want to like slam some heroin in my arm