kso ...
kso hey i just napped for about 3 hours lol. 4:30 - 7:30isg.hmmwell..so ABOUT 3 hours. i cant tell if i have a cold or allergies because ive never really had allergies since i was seven. There are things on my mind. one, who are my friends? i really only have a few good ones and thats fine with me. Alot of them are all people that i never really thought WOULD be my closest friends .. i love when things work out that way.two i really need to get ontop of my grades. Like serisouly i got a pretty good report card [ for me ] .. absolutely not one failing grade, just average and i wanna keep it that way, if not bring it up. i know im failing italian, as is everyone else, and im not doing good in essentials because i just dont take her gay tests well .. and in math im doing alot better so i dont think im failing that anymore. and i havent handed in one homework assignment in art .. but im handing it in tomorrow so its ok. its really gonna suck if i fail something this marking period, im sure i can bring up my grades though, i just need to do better on tests and quizes. anwyas my mom has been gone again in texas and my 'other family'life has been ok. i love them to deaht, i wish that i could of grown up more with them.. i feel like i could of came out so much better haa. maybe. i jus would of been happier more .. this year atleast. like my mom changed so much over this past year that it's put me in this not-eriica low mood. i cant even explain it =/ but its otay . Tings will work out just it's knda on my mind. there isnt anything i can really do about it, just try to ignore my mom's devilish ways. and i can do that..it's just gonna take time. stephen and i have been doing pretty good. it's so hard to get jealousy out of the way sometimes..it's such a waste, i know. it really really is its just so hard to get out of the way somtimes. It's all about trust though, and we just getting through this trust thing from last tuesday. i wanna step back from the situation and actually look into whats going on from another point of view alot of times.. and it's hard when you're emotional. i guess that's why i talk to my friends about dese tings sometimes .. well ABSOLUTELY CLOSEST friends about it because they can. i have more lately though .. in general i dont alot but just lately i have been. it's just the best feeling knowing you're the absolute only one !!!! hehe !! kwell imma write more later because :: cries :: the last episode of everybody loves raymond is on . =[ boo hoo !!