as for the moment, i can say, for now.
there is a great difference between knowing what to do and not knowing how to do it, and not knowing what to do, but resting assured that you could do it if you knew what it was.
as i've been expressing to many i've come across in the past week or so, i'm feelin in an equilibrium of sorts. i've finally dug in and settled down in that place that had several question marks before... more and more as you go back in time. there are always a few finishing touches, but not before, i expect, some other stuff starts to change.
as for one branch, work has been great in all senses. i can't say that i don't struggle with the hours (which will get worse than they are now), or those pangs of realization that maybe i don't know what i'm really doing. and soon enough, people will be looking to me for answers... people with "real" problems, and it'll be my responsibility to provide things for them. uf.
besides that, however, my staff has been the most supporting i could ask for, and the job itself keeps proving to me that it fits the criteria i set out from the beginning. and, once again, the best path seems to have chosen me, rather than the other way around.
i definitely am struggling with the fact that wellesley is starting back up without me, but not nearly as much as i feared... mostly cause being on my own really matches me right now.
i have to say the greatest obstacles to this whole independent living thing come up when i run into some snafu, and it hits me that all of a sudden, i have no choice but to take the hard way through. there are less easy way outs.
basically, that the line we draw between action and consequence has become that much more boldly defined.
as i've been expressing to many i've come across in the past week or so, i'm feelin in an equilibrium of sorts. i've finally dug in and settled down in that place that had several question marks before... more and more as you go back in time. there are always a few finishing touches, but not before, i expect, some other stuff starts to change.
as for one branch, work has been great in all senses. i can't say that i don't struggle with the hours (which will get worse than they are now), or those pangs of realization that maybe i don't know what i'm really doing. and soon enough, people will be looking to me for answers... people with "real" problems, and it'll be my responsibility to provide things for them. uf.
besides that, however, my staff has been the most supporting i could ask for, and the job itself keeps proving to me that it fits the criteria i set out from the beginning. and, once again, the best path seems to have chosen me, rather than the other way around.
i definitely am struggling with the fact that wellesley is starting back up without me, but not nearly as much as i feared... mostly cause being on my own really matches me right now.
i have to say the greatest obstacles to this whole independent living thing come up when i run into some snafu, and it hits me that all of a sudden, i have no choice but to take the hard way through. there are less easy way outs.
basically, that the line we draw between action and consequence has become that much more boldly defined.