what to do - Part 5
Hey guys I was just wondering what you were thinking to the little bit of overlaping the story that I have been doing at the begging of each chapter?
Ive been doing it as to give the story from both POV’s
I was wondering if you like it or hate it?
Should I keep it all in one POV if so who’s?
Sophie or Sian?
Or would you prefer it just to be a general POV?
Let me know what you think because after all I write for you lot.. So I need to give you what you want!
FINALLY just wana say a HUGE thank you to those of you who have been commenting
It really does make me want to write more often and makes me feel like maybe I am pretty good at something.. So anyway enough about me..
Take it away SOPHIE AND SIAN…
(Sian’s POV)
Sian: “I’m sorry I shouted”
I had to apologise, I know that I was mad at her, but to be honest I had no reason to be, I know that this isn’t like her to be on guard there most be a really big reason, a real reason or she wouldn’t of push me away, I shouldn’t have got mad I should of just spoke to her, talked like we normally do, like I intend to now!
If she will not that I would blame her if she didn’t let me, I was mean, angry, forceful its not like me to be like that with her, its not the person I am but the fort that I was going to lose her I don’t know id climb in my head and kept building and for a split second I let it take over me I cant lose her I just cant not even for a little while, cant she see that I NEED her.. I want her I need her around,, god what am I supposed to do now?
Tell her Sian go on, what have you got to lose.. Well only your best friend gosh what am I should I do I don’t know what is the best for her, for me, for us… is there an us? Could there be.. I was brought out of my forts as she started to leave the room and I herd her mumble something in my general direction.
Sophie “This isn’t your fault Sian, so don’t apologise”
She walked into the living room, what am I guna do now, she’s telling me of I need to say sorr…
Sophie “and I know you wana say sorry for apologising but I warn you powers if you do, I may just have to slap you”
There she goes reading my mind again, damn is she in my head?
Sian: “Sor..” *cough* “okay”
She smiled at my attempt at a fake cough to cover that I was about to say sorry again, I do have a habit of apologising when its not even my fault, but that’s the thing I don’t know what is going on with her right now and this is unusual to me, I’ve always been able to read her like a book, but not this time and that scared me, I cant tell if this is something to do with me or her, or the both of us, I just wish that she would talk to me.
Sian “it’s not?”
I could see she dint no what I was talking about, she was just as lost in fort as I was right now, and how can I blame her after the way that I had acted, if she didn’t hate me before she must now.. What am I gunna do about this, I just want it to be okay, I need to get around this I needed to get this out of her, I made myself clearer to see if I could get an answer out of her this time.
Sian: “You said this isn’t my fault, It isn’t?”
I know I sounded shocked, I didn’t mean to but I felt like this was all my fault from the moment I got the text I was sure it was something to do with me and noe, im more sure than anything that it is my fault and I totally deserve for her to laid all this shit bear and tell me what the hell it is that is going on, what ive done, why she needs to be away from me, and why she is being so distant with me, I don’t like this we should be cuddled up watching a DVD right now, not sat in this room not even able to look at one another!
Sophie: “Not at all, I sent the text, I’m the one who started all of this, I wish I could take it back I’m so sorry I didn’t really mean it”
I cant even fathom what the hell… I just wana know what… hey bright spark ask her then she’s right there!
Sian: “then why?”
Tick tock, tick tock, am I the only one who feels like a whole hour has passed in a second??
Sophie: “like I said I was just thinking, ignore it, cant we just put a DVD on, you are staying right?”
Hang on.. She’s doing it again avoiding the situation, I don’t know what to do here I need to know why she doesn’t want me around right now what the hell have I done?
Sian: “Sophie, if there’s something wrong with us, I’d rather know”
I couldn’t sit here and let her pretend that nothing is happening here, there is something there’s a reason she asked me to stay away I need to find out exactly what that reason is, I cant have her avoid this all the time, I am not going to let her block this out, its not fair on me, not when all I’ve done is been there for her!!
Sophie: “Please can we not just leave it”
Oh my, did I just hear her voice break is she about to cry? Oh no I nearly made her cry, well don’t I just feel like the big bad bitch now.. Good one Sian, make your best friend cry that will help the whole situation,
I disgaurded my tea on to the table and walked over to where she was sat, I took her empty cup out of her hand, and placed it on the table next to mine behind me, and I kent down to her level, I took both of her hands into one of my and I used my other hand to wipe away a stay tear that had shed. She still couldn’t look at me, I tried to gain her eye contact but nothing, after a few failed tries I took on finger on my spare and and placed it under her chin and as I started to move her face up to face me I let a few words of encoragement glide to her ears.
Sian: “Look at me soph.. please”
It was almost a whishper but I worked as soon as our eyes meet she broke down, I didn’t know where it had come from but I knew exactly what I had to do to clam her he was doing the think with her fingers again, I knew that she needed to feel protected right now so I did one thing that I also knew helped when she broke down like this.
I picked myself up and I placed myself at the side of her I crossed my legs I was facing her side she looked at me with worry.
Sian “it’s okay come on”
She draped her legs over mine buried her head into my chest with one arm I wrapped her up and her as possibly close as I could get her to me and with the other I took one of her hands in mine I entwined our fingers and started to rub my thumb back and forth over hers, she let out a load sob and I felt her whole body shake in my arms.
Sian: “I got you, I got you baby. I’m here”
I said this and planted a few kisses on her forehead, we stayed in this position for about an hour until she was totally clam, I didn’t try to move out of the position though I knew that she needed me right now and im not about to let go of her not when she needs me, after a while I noticed that her breathing had changed and I realised that she had fell asleep in my arms, this often happened when we she broke down like this, I didn’t mind at least I knew that I was able to protect her from the world at least for a short while.
I looked at my watched and I realised that it was coming up to 11 o’clock so I pulled out my phone to check if anyone had called, there was only a text.
From Vinnie: Hey, I guess you’re at sophie’s, let me know your safe when you can. Dad x
I hit reply trying not to disturb Sophie I used the hand that had been wrapped around her arm and kept our hands entwined.
To Vinnie: Yeah I am sorry I didn’t leave a note it was short notice this week, I’m safe, I’ll see you Sunday. S x
Sophie started to stir in my arms I quickly put my phone away and re started the back and forth motion with my thumb even if she was waking I knew this would keep her clam.
Sophie “what time is it”
She crocked out a little, it was so cute I planned another kiss on her forehead and then replied in a whisper.
Sian: “Nearly 11 babe”
Sophie: “Sorry”
Sian: “Shhh It’s fine, that’s what I’m here for”
Sophie: “I was stupid to think that I could spend time away from you”
She looked up at me for a brief second and let out a little smirk in my direction, and then nuzzled back into my chest was this is was she about to tell what it was all about or is she guna leave me hanging again? What am I to do with her?
Ive been doing it as to give the story from both POV’s
I was wondering if you like it or hate it?
Should I keep it all in one POV if so who’s?
Sophie or Sian?
Or would you prefer it just to be a general POV?
Let me know what you think because after all I write for you lot.. So I need to give you what you want!
FINALLY just wana say a HUGE thank you to those of you who have been commenting
It really does make me want to write more often and makes me feel like maybe I am pretty good at something.. So anyway enough about me..
Take it away SOPHIE AND SIAN…
(Sian’s POV)
Sian: “I’m sorry I shouted”
I had to apologise, I know that I was mad at her, but to be honest I had no reason to be, I know that this isn’t like her to be on guard there most be a really big reason, a real reason or she wouldn’t of push me away, I shouldn’t have got mad I should of just spoke to her, talked like we normally do, like I intend to now!
If she will not that I would blame her if she didn’t let me, I was mean, angry, forceful its not like me to be like that with her, its not the person I am but the fort that I was going to lose her I don’t know id climb in my head and kept building and for a split second I let it take over me I cant lose her I just cant not even for a little while, cant she see that I NEED her.. I want her I need her around,, god what am I supposed to do now?
Tell her Sian go on, what have you got to lose.. Well only your best friend gosh what am I should I do I don’t know what is the best for her, for me, for us… is there an us? Could there be.. I was brought out of my forts as she started to leave the room and I herd her mumble something in my general direction.
Sophie “This isn’t your fault Sian, so don’t apologise”
She walked into the living room, what am I guna do now, she’s telling me of I need to say sorr…
Sophie “and I know you wana say sorry for apologising but I warn you powers if you do, I may just have to slap you”
There she goes reading my mind again, damn is she in my head?
Sian: “Sor..” *cough* “okay”
She smiled at my attempt at a fake cough to cover that I was about to say sorry again, I do have a habit of apologising when its not even my fault, but that’s the thing I don’t know what is going on with her right now and this is unusual to me, I’ve always been able to read her like a book, but not this time and that scared me, I cant tell if this is something to do with me or her, or the both of us, I just wish that she would talk to me.
Sian “it’s not?”
I could see she dint no what I was talking about, she was just as lost in fort as I was right now, and how can I blame her after the way that I had acted, if she didn’t hate me before she must now.. What am I gunna do about this, I just want it to be okay, I need to get around this I needed to get this out of her, I made myself clearer to see if I could get an answer out of her this time.
Sian: “You said this isn’t my fault, It isn’t?”
I know I sounded shocked, I didn’t mean to but I felt like this was all my fault from the moment I got the text I was sure it was something to do with me and noe, im more sure than anything that it is my fault and I totally deserve for her to laid all this shit bear and tell me what the hell it is that is going on, what ive done, why she needs to be away from me, and why she is being so distant with me, I don’t like this we should be cuddled up watching a DVD right now, not sat in this room not even able to look at one another!
Sophie: “Not at all, I sent the text, I’m the one who started all of this, I wish I could take it back I’m so sorry I didn’t really mean it”
I cant even fathom what the hell… I just wana know what… hey bright spark ask her then she’s right there!
Sian: “then why?”
Tick tock, tick tock, am I the only one who feels like a whole hour has passed in a second??
Sophie: “like I said I was just thinking, ignore it, cant we just put a DVD on, you are staying right?”
Hang on.. She’s doing it again avoiding the situation, I don’t know what to do here I need to know why she doesn’t want me around right now what the hell have I done?
Sian: “Sophie, if there’s something wrong with us, I’d rather know”
I couldn’t sit here and let her pretend that nothing is happening here, there is something there’s a reason she asked me to stay away I need to find out exactly what that reason is, I cant have her avoid this all the time, I am not going to let her block this out, its not fair on me, not when all I’ve done is been there for her!!
Sophie: “Please can we not just leave it”
Oh my, did I just hear her voice break is she about to cry? Oh no I nearly made her cry, well don’t I just feel like the big bad bitch now.. Good one Sian, make your best friend cry that will help the whole situation,
I disgaurded my tea on to the table and walked over to where she was sat, I took her empty cup out of her hand, and placed it on the table next to mine behind me, and I kent down to her level, I took both of her hands into one of my and I used my other hand to wipe away a stay tear that had shed. She still couldn’t look at me, I tried to gain her eye contact but nothing, after a few failed tries I took on finger on my spare and and placed it under her chin and as I started to move her face up to face me I let a few words of encoragement glide to her ears.
Sian: “Look at me soph.. please”
It was almost a whishper but I worked as soon as our eyes meet she broke down, I didn’t know where it had come from but I knew exactly what I had to do to clam her he was doing the think with her fingers again, I knew that she needed to feel protected right now so I did one thing that I also knew helped when she broke down like this.
I picked myself up and I placed myself at the side of her I crossed my legs I was facing her side she looked at me with worry.
Sian “it’s okay come on”
She draped her legs over mine buried her head into my chest with one arm I wrapped her up and her as possibly close as I could get her to me and with the other I took one of her hands in mine I entwined our fingers and started to rub my thumb back and forth over hers, she let out a load sob and I felt her whole body shake in my arms.
Sian: “I got you, I got you baby. I’m here”
I said this and planted a few kisses on her forehead, we stayed in this position for about an hour until she was totally clam, I didn’t try to move out of the position though I knew that she needed me right now and im not about to let go of her not when she needs me, after a while I noticed that her breathing had changed and I realised that she had fell asleep in my arms, this often happened when we she broke down like this, I didn’t mind at least I knew that I was able to protect her from the world at least for a short while.
I looked at my watched and I realised that it was coming up to 11 o’clock so I pulled out my phone to check if anyone had called, there was only a text.
From Vinnie: Hey, I guess you’re at sophie’s, let me know your safe when you can. Dad x
I hit reply trying not to disturb Sophie I used the hand that had been wrapped around her arm and kept our hands entwined.
To Vinnie: Yeah I am sorry I didn’t leave a note it was short notice this week, I’m safe, I’ll see you Sunday. S x
Sophie started to stir in my arms I quickly put my phone away and re started the back and forth motion with my thumb even if she was waking I knew this would keep her clam.
Sophie “what time is it”
She crocked out a little, it was so cute I planned another kiss on her forehead and then replied in a whisper.
Sian: “Nearly 11 babe”
Sophie: “Sorry”
Sian: “Shhh It’s fine, that’s what I’m here for”
Sophie: “I was stupid to think that I could spend time away from you”
She looked up at me for a brief second and let out a little smirk in my direction, and then nuzzled back into my chest was this is was she about to tell what it was all about or is she guna leave me hanging again? What am I to do with her?