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I cry everyday.
I cry everyday for a man who may never be able to appreciate how much I love him. I cry everyday for someone who doesn't even know I'm in pain. I cry everyday for someone who may still love me, but would rather be with someone else. I cry, because I can't control my emotions.
"Let me know if there's anything I can do."
That's what he said to me just a minute ago, when I told him I was sad. I want to laugh, but it's not funny. It makes me want to yell at him. My emotions make me irrational.
It's not that I don't love how dedicated I am to him. I'm glad I found someone as special as him and that I can love him to the capacity that I do. But as long as we're not together, I'm going to suffer. And if I find someone else, I'm afraid that it might never feel as special as it did with me and Phil [McGrath]. It's like, I've already found what I'm looking for. I don't need to find anyone else. But realizing that I have to in order to move on is really depressing. It just sucks beyond belief, to put it simply.
I cry everyday for a man who may never be able to appreciate how much I love him. I cry everyday for someone who doesn't even know I'm in pain. I cry everyday for someone who may still love me, but would rather be with someone else. I cry, because I can't control my emotions.
"Let me know if there's anything I can do."
That's what he said to me just a minute ago, when I told him I was sad. I want to laugh, but it's not funny. It makes me want to yell at him. My emotions make me irrational.
It's not that I don't love how dedicated I am to him. I'm glad I found someone as special as him and that I can love him to the capacity that I do. But as long as we're not together, I'm going to suffer. And if I find someone else, I'm afraid that it might never feel as special as it did with me and Phil [McGrath]. It's like, I've already found what I'm looking for. I don't need to find anyone else. But realizing that I have to in order to move on is really depressing. It just sucks beyond belief, to put it simply.