Sleep
Call me gross, but I'm indulging in some Bud Ice Light tonight due to the higher alcohol content than most beers. It's decent, and I'll have a pretty good buzz at the end of the six-pack. It'll help me sleep.
I really need to figure out how falling asleep can be easier. I've tried most things one could suggest, including saying a calming phrase repititiously in my head, counting backwards from some high number, taking melatonin supplements, reading before sleep, writing before sleep, listening to music while trying to fall asleep... nothing works. Except drinking.
On an average night, I lay in bed for an hour and a half before taking my last glance at the clock. It's so frustrating to be laying in bed, exhausted from the day, and not being able to sleep. It's a problem in my head, I think. I can't turn off my thoughts.
Like Zach Braff on Scrubs, I constantly narrate my life. Wait, no, that's not it. I'm constantly reflecting on the past, what I might have done differently and what I did right. Then there's what's coming up... ideas for dances and thoughts about my living situation and that damn ticket I got in Royal Oak and what I'm going to do about it, and whatever else happens to be going on. I can't stop it. It's like I know that if I think, I'll have better ideas and I'll clear things up a little better. But I can't just stop after something's cleared up. I have to try to clear up everyting.
Then there are thoughts about my physiological state. I've realized that sleeping is difficult for me because I don't like to lay in non-dancerlike positions. It's uncomfortable to be out of proper alignment or to have a sickled foot when I'm trying to sleep. That's why my feet have to hang off the end of the bed. That's why I can't just lay there. It has to feel right. And getting it to feel right isn't that hard, but when I have to change positions, the whole process starts over.
I also find it strange that I used to be cold in bed, and I found comfort, and therefore, quicker sleep, when snuggling up in the covers. But lately, I've been really hot. And I'm really uncomfortable sleeping without a blanket. But I've been way too warm to get under mine.
Furthermore, the cats sleep in my room. I'm a light sleeper, so if I'm kind of almost asleep and a cat jumps on my bed or makes some kind of noise in the room, I'm immediately and fully awake again. Oh, and my dad snores really loudly. I can hear him through two closed doors and across a hall. I have no idea how he even sleeps through it.
Maybe now that I've talked about it, I'll be able to sleep tonight.
Doubt it.
I really need to figure out how falling asleep can be easier. I've tried most things one could suggest, including saying a calming phrase repititiously in my head, counting backwards from some high number, taking melatonin supplements, reading before sleep, writing before sleep, listening to music while trying to fall asleep... nothing works. Except drinking.
On an average night, I lay in bed for an hour and a half before taking my last glance at the clock. It's so frustrating to be laying in bed, exhausted from the day, and not being able to sleep. It's a problem in my head, I think. I can't turn off my thoughts.
Like Zach Braff on Scrubs, I constantly narrate my life. Wait, no, that's not it. I'm constantly reflecting on the past, what I might have done differently and what I did right. Then there's what's coming up... ideas for dances and thoughts about my living situation and that damn ticket I got in Royal Oak and what I'm going to do about it, and whatever else happens to be going on. I can't stop it. It's like I know that if I think, I'll have better ideas and I'll clear things up a little better. But I can't just stop after something's cleared up. I have to try to clear up everyting.
Then there are thoughts about my physiological state. I've realized that sleeping is difficult for me because I don't like to lay in non-dancerlike positions. It's uncomfortable to be out of proper alignment or to have a sickled foot when I'm trying to sleep. That's why my feet have to hang off the end of the bed. That's why I can't just lay there. It has to feel right. And getting it to feel right isn't that hard, but when I have to change positions, the whole process starts over.
I also find it strange that I used to be cold in bed, and I found comfort, and therefore, quicker sleep, when snuggling up in the covers. But lately, I've been really hot. And I'm really uncomfortable sleeping without a blanket. But I've been way too warm to get under mine.
Furthermore, the cats sleep in my room. I'm a light sleeper, so if I'm kind of almost asleep and a cat jumps on my bed or makes some kind of noise in the room, I'm immediately and fully awake again. Oh, and my dad snores really loudly. I can hear him through two closed doors and across a hall. I have no idea how he even sleeps through it.
Maybe now that I've talked about it, I'll be able to sleep tonight.
Doubt it.