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How could you have been so thoughtless? Oblivious and Blind?
Your stupidity has brought you to your end,
when you already fell behind.
Your selfish greed over powered you,
You swung and struck out to a curve,
You shut your eyes on your sickness
Then you got what you deserved.
I dont think you ever realized or much cared that death was real
That rush of life, the awsome high was all you lived to feel.
Now your gone, all feeling lost and i dont know what to do
but sit and dream of your powder eyes and hope it gets me through.
My dear Calen, only 24 years old
My best friend, inspiration at heart
and the key to me soul.
I love you!
I can't stop thinking about the actuality of the fact that your gone. FOR GOOD. And when I first heard I couldnt breathe but I thought it would get easier but it only gets harder to realize. You are sooo unbeleiveably dumb and stupid and if i could i would tell you face to face exacly how inconsiderate and immature you were but if i could see your face there would be no reason to be upset. More dissapointed. you never thought of your consequenses ever since i met you you always were carefree, living life to its fullest ended yours sooner than you were meant to leave. I love you and my life is going to well but it doesnt seem much fair that I can live and you can't. It herts to hide all the pain from the rest of the world but i want you to know i didnt forget, i didnt get over it. Im still pulling through. I love you and I miss you sooooo much. Why did you do it? why did you have to be soo fucking dumb?