This sucks
I'm sick. I don't know who got me sick because almost everyone at Lehigh is suffering from cold-like symptoms. It's Pacing Break and I was really looking forward to going to Ohio so I could see Garret. I wanted to see his apartment and meet his friends and finally see one of his plays. But now I'm sick and can't go anywhere, every night I feel a little better and every morning I wake up feeling worse than the day before. My mom wants me to come home. I know that if I go to Ohio I'll only get stressed out from the drive and get worse or give whatever I have to Garret. But this break is really going to suck. I'll get to spend it in bed getting reading done for my AA Women's Lit class and learning my lines. Tech week is coming up and I REALLY can't be sick for that. I just really miss Garret.
Every time he comes to see me I remember how much I want to be around him all the time and then he leaves and I'm depressed. But before long I go into this numb phase where I am conscious that I have a boyfriend but feel that he just lives in my phone and doesn't really exist. But then, when I see him again I have a short, uncomfortable moment when I don't recognize him and feel like I'm hugging a stranger. But then I remember that it's him and fall in love with him all over again only knowing that he's going to leave again. I hate that he's so far away. I don't want to wait three more years. I know everyone has heard this complaint but I know very few people who can really relate.
Every time he comes to see me I remember how much I want to be around him all the time and then he leaves and I'm depressed. But before long I go into this numb phase where I am conscious that I have a boyfriend but feel that he just lives in my phone and doesn't really exist. But then, when I see him again I have a short, uncomfortable moment when I don't recognize him and feel like I'm hugging a stranger. But then I remember that it's him and fall in love with him all over again only knowing that he's going to leave again. I hate that he's so far away. I don't want to wait three more years. I know everyone has heard this complaint but I know very few people who can really relate.