sometimes i just don't know
i don't know what it is. but i feel as if i am a rebound for my one friend til if their other friend is around. and it's pretty messed up.
as for my other friends, i feel as if they don't support me all the time and as if they think their better then me.
whats the point of having friends if they just treat you like shit? i don't know what i am to my friends half the time, but i get a feeling as if i'm being used.
but besides those groups of friends i have others that i know will always be there for me, and i absolutely love them. but now it seems i barely get to see them, and my one is moving to white house station, while the other is busy with work/school, next yr the other starts college and who knows how that will go ya know? and then the other lives in sp, and i see her maybe once a month.
i just wish i could go somewhere to get away for a little you know?
i feel as if sometimes i have to please everybody at once. and even though that horoscope may be right, i have no idea how long anything is going to last; including this.
instead right now i think i will just focus on school, and training hawk and also myself. soon i will be preoccupied with work at WCC, stablehand work, and also riding. so i should be okay.
my mind just doesn't know anymore.
as for my other friends, i feel as if they don't support me all the time and as if they think their better then me.
whats the point of having friends if they just treat you like shit? i don't know what i am to my friends half the time, but i get a feeling as if i'm being used.
but besides those groups of friends i have others that i know will always be there for me, and i absolutely love them. but now it seems i barely get to see them, and my one is moving to white house station, while the other is busy with work/school, next yr the other starts college and who knows how that will go ya know? and then the other lives in sp, and i see her maybe once a month.
i just wish i could go somewhere to get away for a little you know?
i feel as if sometimes i have to please everybody at once. and even though that horoscope may be right, i have no idea how long anything is going to last; including this.
instead right now i think i will just focus on school, and training hawk and also myself. soon i will be preoccupied with work at WCC, stablehand work, and also riding. so i should be okay.
my mind just doesn't know anymore.