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hello frens, it's been a long long time since i ever post anything here. time, u see, is never enough for me. my final yr project is taking longer than it's supposed to. and not only it is very time consuming, it is a very exhausting BURDEN as well. here, i apologise for not replying any msgs or for just disappearing from the face of this earth and entering the cruel, dark, deep dungeon of 'Shelob' (i changed the nickname of my supervisor).
since i managed to escape from the dungeon just for a minute, i send out this msg telling u guys that i'm still alive (but maybe without a soul left), and that i'm truly sorry for not keeping in touch with all of u out there.
Life has been harsh and cruel, and the workload never stops piling up, criticisms and complains never seems to end and bad weathers spells seems to stay forever. on the other hand, time seems to pass too fast and my energy seems to be alwiz on the low level.
as usual, i guess all of u know that my life is pretty much worse than a roller coaster. my relationships history might be more interesting than J.Lo. my study life in university isn't any brighter with all the pressure and tension. my social life isn't anything to be proud of either. but no matter how bad things come my way, i still have some close frens to hang on to, to share and to listen, and at the end of the day, i realise that i have some peeps who can listen and care, if not knocking some sense into the 'baka' head of mine.
during this sad time however, only happy memories and future images of laughter and giggles with friends seems to help a little, if not much. crashing out at clubs or even a simple outing makes me excited and even had me planning for it. at the lowest point of my emotions, i found out that these simple things in life are actually the happiest time which we usually take for granted. i also found out that u dun make friends with people, u are merely accepted by them. so i thank u, friends, for accepting me. no matter how less often we meet nowadays, a tiny footstep of u have left a mark in my life.
i may not have time now to tell u how i miss the times we used to hang out, gossiping about how bitchy the snobbish girl is, or about the guy working at the counter, or just talking craps until 2/4am. or about the time where we used to crash at my place, or talking at the seaside, or plain barbeque party, and maybe the most missed of all, getting VERY VERY HIGH at the club and laughing til my mom calls and almost sudden, getting sober again. oh yes, i miss those times. and i really look forward to it again.
let's cross our fingers that i dun lose more than my soul after i finish 'building great wall of malaysia'. (take that as my project, cos if i actually explain wat it is, it's time for me to be back in Shelob's lair. hell, it's more interesting to build a great wall anyway.)
i dunno y i'm in such poetic mood now, so here goes.
thank you friends,
for laughing,
as i learn to laugh at myself.
for crying,
as i learn not to fear to show my emotions.
for sharing,
as i learn not to bottle up my feelings.
for giving,
as i learn to extend my hand.
for accepting,
as i learn to accept the good and cancel out the bad.
for listening,
as i learn to listen, not just to hear.
for noticing,
as i learn to see past through the silence.
for daring,
as i learn to move on independently.
for waiting,
as i learn to be patient and tolerant.
(and also to hurry up a lil!)
for caring,
as i learn to support and encourage.
for trusting,
as i learn not to betray.
for loving,
as i learn that the world's not selfish.
for being urselves,
as i learn that i'm also 'unique' (if not a nutcase) like u.
for being my friends,
as i learn to treasure, cherish and appreciate the wisdom u taught me.
so i thank you, my friends.
once every tiny black coal is sholved into the furnace and all tiny black spot is removed, i'll be released and i'll catch up with all of u then. (some of u may not understand the crap i'm talking about but just take it that i'm captured by a GIGANTIC BLACK WIDOW SPIDER, and i'm supposed to do all her work until she's finally satisfied to release me.
til we meet again, may good health and good fate always be yours.
jo.....
(wait a min, i smell Shelob's FOUL scent somewhere near...)
gtg.
since i managed to escape from the dungeon just for a minute, i send out this msg telling u guys that i'm still alive (but maybe without a soul left), and that i'm truly sorry for not keeping in touch with all of u out there.
Life has been harsh and cruel, and the workload never stops piling up, criticisms and complains never seems to end and bad weathers spells seems to stay forever. on the other hand, time seems to pass too fast and my energy seems to be alwiz on the low level.
as usual, i guess all of u know that my life is pretty much worse than a roller coaster. my relationships history might be more interesting than J.Lo. my study life in university isn't any brighter with all the pressure and tension. my social life isn't anything to be proud of either. but no matter how bad things come my way, i still have some close frens to hang on to, to share and to listen, and at the end of the day, i realise that i have some peeps who can listen and care, if not knocking some sense into the 'baka' head of mine.
during this sad time however, only happy memories and future images of laughter and giggles with friends seems to help a little, if not much. crashing out at clubs or even a simple outing makes me excited and even had me planning for it. at the lowest point of my emotions, i found out that these simple things in life are actually the happiest time which we usually take for granted. i also found out that u dun make friends with people, u are merely accepted by them. so i thank u, friends, for accepting me. no matter how less often we meet nowadays, a tiny footstep of u have left a mark in my life.
i may not have time now to tell u how i miss the times we used to hang out, gossiping about how bitchy the snobbish girl is, or about the guy working at the counter, or just talking craps until 2/4am. or about the time where we used to crash at my place, or talking at the seaside, or plain barbeque party, and maybe the most missed of all, getting VERY VERY HIGH at the club and laughing til my mom calls and almost sudden, getting sober again. oh yes, i miss those times. and i really look forward to it again.
let's cross our fingers that i dun lose more than my soul after i finish 'building great wall of malaysia'. (take that as my project, cos if i actually explain wat it is, it's time for me to be back in Shelob's lair. hell, it's more interesting to build a great wall anyway.)
i dunno y i'm in such poetic mood now, so here goes.
thank you friends,
for laughing,
as i learn to laugh at myself.
for crying,
as i learn not to fear to show my emotions.
for sharing,
as i learn not to bottle up my feelings.
for giving,
as i learn to extend my hand.
for accepting,
as i learn to accept the good and cancel out the bad.
for listening,
as i learn to listen, not just to hear.
for noticing,
as i learn to see past through the silence.
for daring,
as i learn to move on independently.
for waiting,
as i learn to be patient and tolerant.
(and also to hurry up a lil!)
for caring,
as i learn to support and encourage.
for trusting,
as i learn not to betray.
for loving,
as i learn that the world's not selfish.
for being urselves,
as i learn that i'm also 'unique' (if not a nutcase) like u.
for being my friends,
as i learn to treasure, cherish and appreciate the wisdom u taught me.
so i thank you, my friends.
once every tiny black coal is sholved into the furnace and all tiny black spot is removed, i'll be released and i'll catch up with all of u then. (some of u may not understand the crap i'm talking about but just take it that i'm captured by a GIGANTIC BLACK WIDOW SPIDER, and i'm supposed to do all her work until she's finally satisfied to release me.
til we meet again, may good health and good fate always be yours.
jo.....
(wait a min, i smell Shelob's FOUL scent somewhere near...)
gtg.