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so i haven't updated in awhile...
mostly bc i hate livejournal,
but looks like im back...
i finally got a car
thats all my own.
shes pretty.
unfortunately payments
& insurance are "all my own" too.
i saw brandston last week.
they did so great.it was pretty
much all together a great show.
saw melissa and angie there.
it was really crazy!! yaaay
i no longer work at black angus,
thank god for that.
i work at johnny carinos.
its so much better.
i kinda like work again.
back to school in august.
i liked taking a semester off,
but im actually excited to go back
and not be a bum anymore.
...on another note...
i feel like i am the happiest,
and most depressed i have ever
been in my life.
im not sure whats the truth is EVER.
everything is hidden away behind
passwords. and its not like i was
constantly looking at anything.
myspace, you always knew when i went on.
and LJ, i never new your password so i
couldnt have logged onto it.
i dont care that you have different passwords.
i just feel like whats the big deal,what are you hiding?
and the fact that you log onto mine whenever you
feel like it is ok?
i feel like i felt when everything
happened before. i dont know what
goes on in your mind, i dont know
what happens when im at work and your not.
at the show last week, you act like i care.
i didn't and would never, pull you away.
i didn't even notice her standing there.
DO WHATEVER THE HELL YOU WANT...
i just hate that you think i care that
much about her to be pulling you away
its your life and you make the decisions
YOU want. you dont care if they hurt me,
so it doesnt matter
you tell me you love me, and i love you too.
but why can't we just be happy, no matter what
other people have to say. why is everything
everyones business.
i never used to post things about us here.
but this is the only way to get you to here me.
i miss when you used to update your journal
about how much fun we had and all the great times.
once in awhile i look back, and i could cry,
remembering how much you used to gush on and on.
now its like i dont exist, except when theres
something wrong.
i feel like the idiot girlfriend.
like i cant stop loving you, and you hate my guts.
is that how you feel? baby please talk to me...we need to talk...please
mostly bc i hate livejournal,
but looks like im back...
i finally got a car
thats all my own.
shes pretty.
unfortunately payments
& insurance are "all my own" too.
i saw brandston last week.
they did so great.it was pretty
much all together a great show.
saw melissa and angie there.
it was really crazy!! yaaay
i no longer work at black angus,
thank god for that.
i work at johnny carinos.
its so much better.
i kinda like work again.
back to school in august.
i liked taking a semester off,
but im actually excited to go back
and not be a bum anymore.
...on another note...
i feel like i am the happiest,
and most depressed i have ever
been in my life.
im not sure whats the truth is EVER.
everything is hidden away behind
passwords. and its not like i was
constantly looking at anything.
myspace, you always knew when i went on.
and LJ, i never new your password so i
couldnt have logged onto it.
i dont care that you have different passwords.
i just feel like whats the big deal,what are you hiding?
and the fact that you log onto mine whenever you
feel like it is ok?
i feel like i felt when everything
happened before. i dont know what
goes on in your mind, i dont know
what happens when im at work and your not.
at the show last week, you act like i care.
i didn't and would never, pull you away.
i didn't even notice her standing there.
DO WHATEVER THE HELL YOU WANT...
i just hate that you think i care that
much about her to be pulling you away
its your life and you make the decisions
YOU want. you dont care if they hurt me,
so it doesnt matter
you tell me you love me, and i love you too.
but why can't we just be happy, no matter what
other people have to say. why is everything
everyones business.
i never used to post things about us here.
but this is the only way to get you to here me.
i miss when you used to update your journal
about how much fun we had and all the great times.
once in awhile i look back, and i could cry,
remembering how much you used to gush on and on.
now its like i dont exist, except when theres
something wrong.
i feel like the idiot girlfriend.
like i cant stop loving you, and you hate my guts.
is that how you feel? baby please talk to me...we need to talk...please