I wonder...
What would you say about me if I told you to be completely honest about what you thought? I think that sometimes I (well, anyone really) set myself up on a high-horse...I think that I'm this nice compassionate, caring person when in all actuality, the majority of people see me as this big nasty bitch. If I seem like I only think about myself or that I'm only concerned with my well-being, I've failed you all as friends.
Toward the end of the school year, I became a vindicitive, selfish, spolied little bitch. I lost sight of what was important--I felt like I needed too focus on myself, but I ended up doing so too much. I'm so sorry if there were times any of you needed me, but I was too self-absorbed to say so.
I'm dying to sit around and listen to you all. We talk about what's going on in our lives, but we don't actually know about each other's struggles. I know that you all go through so much. I think we need each other to come out of these things and still be sane. I may be "gone" away from Glasgow this summer, but I'm still here.
If you want to bitch at me for hurting you--do it. I need to know. If you're upset about something in your life, tell me. I need to know. If anything good has happened, if anything has pissed you off, if you are worried about anything--tell me! I need to know. We can't all be good friends if we're all afraid of talking to each other. I've been hanging around you all for a while now, and sometimes I'm afraid that I don't even really know you...and maybe that you don't really know me, either.
I can tell you "I've changed" until my face turns blue...but I really think that I have. You'll have to experience me to see for yourself though.
I really miss you guys so much. You make me feel so safe and secure...we all get along so well sometimes. I need you...hopefully, you need me too.
Toward the end of the school year, I became a vindicitive, selfish, spolied little bitch. I lost sight of what was important--I felt like I needed too focus on myself, but I ended up doing so too much. I'm so sorry if there were times any of you needed me, but I was too self-absorbed to say so.
I'm dying to sit around and listen to you all. We talk about what's going on in our lives, but we don't actually know about each other's struggles. I know that you all go through so much. I think we need each other to come out of these things and still be sane. I may be "gone" away from Glasgow this summer, but I'm still here.
If you want to bitch at me for hurting you--do it. I need to know. If you're upset about something in your life, tell me. I need to know. If anything good has happened, if anything has pissed you off, if you are worried about anything--tell me! I need to know. We can't all be good friends if we're all afraid of talking to each other. I've been hanging around you all for a while now, and sometimes I'm afraid that I don't even really know you...and maybe that you don't really know me, either.
I can tell you "I've changed" until my face turns blue...but I really think that I have. You'll have to experience me to see for yourself though.
I really miss you guys so much. You make me feel so safe and secure...we all get along so well sometimes. I need you...hopefully, you need me too.