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I never feel more alienated than I do when I walk around outside of my apartment. Normally it's on a weekend night, like tonight. I'll be outside, normally just walking to the donut shop for a drink, or walking out with my friends to their cars, and I'll see some of the other people in the apartments. Families, guys with their girlfriends, other friends just hanging around...and I feel completely cut off from them. Aside from exchanging maybe a "hello" in passing here and there, I've yet to speak to anyone who lives in this apartment complex, I don't even know the names of any of my neighbors, and this is after a year. I really can't even think of what I would talk to them about. Outside of a small circle of friends, I hardly talk to the people I used to anymore. And I don't really even have anything to show for it. Nothing I start is completed, I'm not improving in any of the things I'd like to. I just keep running into this damn wall over and over every few months until I find something to preoccupy myself with for a little while before I burn out on it again, and then it's back to square one.
Where did I fuck this all up? Why can't I fix it?
You'd think someone that just turned 26 would have his shit more together.
Where did I fuck this all up? Why can't I fix it?
You'd think someone that just turned 26 would have his shit more together.